Thoughts of me after
Thursday, October 13, 2011
So I am visiting my parents, family and friends in Florida after I have not seen them in about a year. It's funny how I am receiving weight loss reviews. According to one uncle "wow you look nice...stay that way not good to have a lot of fat". I guess it awakened to me that I really have lost weight ( I don't see it). My parents have even congratulated me on the weight loss. Not saying that I am not happy for the remarks but it just makes me wonder how big I really was. I did not see myself as overweight all these years until last year after seeing a picture of myself, of all places, Facebook. Seeing that picture and noticing the difficulties I had breathing while taking the short flight of steps in my home triggered something in my brain. At 30 I should not be that way and thinking how would I be at 35? At 265 something had to be done. But why I say it's funny now regarding the remarks is that no one told me about my size then. Absolutely no one, not even my husband. It's not that I say this out of anger but out of comfort ( or something like that). But it also makes me think about how would I have taken it? And am I willing to do the same for others without fear of backlash. Even though I know when I saw the need for myself I did it for myself!
During this journey even though I have some ways to go. However, this journey is a springboard for life. I have learned not to limit myself or allow anyone to limit me. To me, my weight loss journey propels me to other goals in my life. Because I know with God I can do all things. Never in a million years would I ever thought that I could run, do Insanity, do Taebo (without stopping), or do a Bootcamp. And I have. We all can, just take one step at a time and keep it moving. No one can do this for you but you. Your own motivator is YOU!