Wednesday, October 12, 2011
I wrote this in a post---but wanted to "keep it" so I'm posting it also as a blog...
Ok...FINALLY...back here to attempt an answer to your so poignantly, well expressed post, Jessie. You spoke for many if not all of us on this thread. NOW...W-H-A-T do "I" wanna say???
#1 would be that I soooo HEAR YOU. And that you're not alone.
Food being Friend and Comforter and ........ ..... ...just "IS" that.
I think one thing I felt reading your words was---HOW SAD. Sad cuz you're thinkin' you have to lose your Friend. I think instead of thinking of "letting go" we need to "embrace". Food "IS" our Friend-it nourishes our body and supplies nutrients to maintain our very lives and when we feel good enough about ourselves and our body, we want the very best "fuel" for it. It can be an adventure to find combinations that "DO" taste GOOD and give us the most nutrition for our calorie and balances "buck". So instead of "giving up"...we're out to find a different way...that night you came in and talked 'bout that yummy apple you were grabbing-it made "me" want one---and I thought about it til I got to the store and got it---RED, SHINY, CRISP, SWEET---a TREAT for what I "REALLY" want. When I'm in that frame of mind-appreciating and yearning even for what I "CAN" have, and then "do"---a sense of PRIDE builds in me to go on then to the next choice...What else can I think about that truly does also speak to that YUMMINESS in me---maybe just as much as what I "thought" I was "losing"???...This week I've had wonderful meals AND stayed within what SP recommends---we'll see how I lose on Friday...but I've had tasty things that have still FED that part in me you speak of...both because they were things I DO enjoy, and because I got to eat often enough I knew it wouldn't be long till I got to have something else. And then, that tomorrow, I could have more again. I made that salad that had lots of yummy veggies so it wasn't just a boring o' salad---and it was there available to me as I needed it, all prepared. I used Lighthouse Lite Ranch and even just the 2 T covered a big cereal bowl of salad nicely when I mixed it up good-and I hd these HUGE cherry tomatoes-bigger than most cherry tomatoes-they're SOOO FULL of flavor---those added to it after the dressing, and all the veggies in it---YUMMMMM!emoticon I've had salmon, and lean ham, talapia and a six oz steak with a delectably seasoned marinade, a chicken breast stuffed with wild rice...a baked potato with much of the pulp removed adding some cottage cheese and green onion tops-much of the goodie nutrients are in the skin and that bit of 'tato I kept. I had sweet potato with that drizzle of honey and a dash of cinnamon...I've had strawberry yogurt each evening with a small banana...and...I've had 1 dark chocolate square when I've wanted a treat in the day-also, I have some yummy sugarless Werther's butterscotch hard candy-just one leaves ya knowing you've had a treat.:-)
ANYWAY-yeah----we can still have good stuff---AND---we can then have a body that we can move around in---feel good about---wear clothes we'd like to wear---yeah, it'll be awhile comin'---and food is "right now"!!!!---but---so is the sense of pride each time we choose to bank on that future prize. In the meantime, changes are happening MIRACULOUSLY inside of us we may not even realize...things change EXPONENTIALLY at our sizes in just a lil' bit of weight lost OR gained in our abilities...and health-wise our docs would tell us HOW MUCH GOOD we do for ourselves inside we don't see. And then---later---we REALLY see.
So hang in there, Jessie---and all of us...I'd like to put each name of ours in there but I for sure don't want to miss ANYONE---but seriously---read this very personally "TO YOU".
YOU ARE WORTH IT---YOU CAN MAKE IT THRU---YOU CAN HAVE WHAT YOU'VE WANTED SO LONG---AND---YOU CAN STILL have things that taste good. Eat s-l-o-w-l-y...
TRULY ENJOY---make what you do have L-A-S-T....
We can do this...and...we're HERE for each other. THAT PART is "REALLY" IMPORTANT.
Love you guys...Sherry