Wednesday, October 12, 2011
I have been pushing myself to the sidelines. I take care of the kids first and don't worry about myself. Now its time for me again! What do they say on the airplane...put the mask on yourself first than help others? Well that is what I am going to do. I am going to focus on myself first (unless there is a dire need from the kids) and than know that I am more capable of taking care of my kids second.
I haven't been using the SP videos and wondering how I am going to fit my exercises in each day...um hello?!?!?!?! I have a "smart" phone and am able to view the videos from there as well as the two computers I have at home...so I WILL start to do at least one video a day to up my exercise. Now what is my excuse?
I have a gym membership, but I have two young children, the youngest who is extremely clingy to mommy. I will have to deal with the fact that I need to leave her with a trusted source and go take care of me!
I am a member of the Quickfire Challenge and haven't been doing those as I once was...why?? because I am so "busy". Really??? I can't stop what I am doing for 5 minutes and do 20 pushups or whatever the challenge is, 4 times during the day? I do that when I go outside for a cigarette.
Which leads to the next thing...why the hell am I still smoking?? I have kids to worry about!! If I am so worried about them and their future, what am I going to do when I am sick, or worse, dead, from those dang things?? I am DONE...did you all hear that? I have smoked my last cancer stick and everytime I think about it, I am going to look at my kids and ask myself "why"!!
So here it goes...I am focusing on me first (exception:emergency need from a child) and than with a healthier me, I will focus on the kids, husband and house...