A Coffin of Flesh
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Thank you to "4A Healthy BMI" for her blog "Making up for lost time". Here is a crucial part of what she said today:
"I'm just so grateful to no longer be living in my own personal coffin of flesh at a BMI over 50, with mobility issues already beginning. I lived for about 15 years that way, from my mid-30s to my mid-40s. I was well over 200 lbs from my mid 20s to my mid 30s. And it wasn't fun.
It wasn't horrible; I mean I traveled and had hobbies and friends and enjoyed life. But I didn't enjoy it the way I do now. I can go places now that most of the rest of the human population can't, simply because I have developed unusual skills and I'm in the appropriate physical shape to do it.
4 years ago if you'd told me I'd be signing up for a class III-IV whitewater kayaking trip in Central America I'd have laughed at you. Because it wasn't even conceivable.
So now I'm living out loud and training hard and eating right during the week so that I can enjoy doing the things I love on the weekends and vacations.
Yes, I have to track my food on my iPod. Yes, I weigh myself every morning and log it on the physicsdiet.com tracker. No, I can't just go and eat whatever I want whenever I want, anymore.
But it's worth it. It is so totally worth it."
Wow, those few paragraphs have had such an impact on me today. The visual illusion of a "coffin of flesh" is so real to me right now. I was looking in an old journal from when I lost 80lbs in 2006-7. In just beginning my journey, I remarked that I couldn't wait to get "out of this fat suit". Its so TRUE! The fat is like a coffin, stopping me from LIVING!! I'm so glad I read this today.
Life has such a funny way of directing us to something right when we need it. I've picked myself up and continued on my journey since last Friday and every day I feel stronger. Blogs like 4A Healthy BMI's may not be exactly where I am on my journey (she's reached her goal and is now white water rafting!) but her experience is so relevant and her words are so helpful. Had to share!