Worst day ever
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
I don't usually do this. I don't usually spread info like this, but this is different. And I need my fellow Clovers to know why I have been, and will be, absent for a few days.
I have been spotting on and off for 3 days. This morning, I had some bright red spotting but very little. I called the doctor anyway and they wanted me to be checked.
I made the two hour drive to my doctor, told them what all had happened and then the doctor tried to find the baby's heartbeat with the doppler... no luck. But that was okay, because I am 14 weeks along today so the baby is still kind of small. But she wanted me to have an ultrasound. So she rushed me over to ultrasound, and there it was confirmed. No heartbeat. It was all over. My heart instantly broke into a million pieces.
So now, I have to have a D&C. I will find out tomorrow when that will be. For now, I am on lifting restrictions and no strenuous activity. I cannot do anything that could cause me to start bleeding. Apparently if I do, it's straight to the ER.
So I will not be posting air miles for a little bit. I really have no idea how long... but I hope to heal physically and emotionally real soon.
Until then, I will be laying low. Thanks for understanding Sparkers and Clovers!