Tuesday, October 11, 2011
It's funny how your mind plays games with you. It can be a good thing or a bad thing.
Most of the time I think I can do anything, I take risks and have been lucky to have came through them with new knowledge. Every year I set goals to achieve something new. This year has been stressful, full of road blocks and yes I understand the learning process ( I am a work in progress) lol
As we get close to the end of the year one of my goals this year was to do a century ride. Which I have scheduled for this month. Of which I planned on giving myself 10-12 weeks to train for, well....
the past six have been busy and along with emotional, My Mom is struggling with depression after being on medication for cancer and my Dad had spine surgery and my best buddy (our dog) died suddenly at the age of 5, to watch her suffer like that was heart breaking. I still get tearing just writing about it.
Today I am planning a long ride to see if I can even compete. I have no doubt I can ride 100 miles. The question is can I do it within the allotted time ? So I am getting out of work as soon as I can and my hope is to do by the time the sun goes down. I would have liked to leave a few hours earlier but was not possible. You do what you can and work with what you have.
My mind tells me are you kidding ? you know you should have had this figured out weeks ago and if you couldn't go any earlier you should cancel and go another day when you can leave earlier, plus the roads are wet now and it might not be the safest time.
I am determined to know where I stand and besides it's only a bike ride no big deal. my motto is "just keep moving and you'll get there"