Sunday, October 09, 2011
After years of obesity and being overweight all my life, I am tired. Tired of where I am and tired of all the energy and money spent to "loose weight" tired of day dreaming, tired of feeling trapped, helpless and hopeless. Forget that. I am going to live one day at a time, enjoying the day and doing what is healthy for me for that day....and in my thinking the weight will come off. Can I be generous to myself....giving me that kind of time...I will try.
I am concerned that I will loose the vision and the determoination since this is not a short term goal. However, that makes no sense if the goal is ultimately health...then it is to be a way of life an obtaining of skills and behaviors that result in health.
Boy that sounds nice and flowery, lets see how this plays out when your frustration level and anger levels hit 9.9 and you still have to hold it together,
lets see then.
I have decided to begin, a journey. Like any other journey so much is unknown, I cannot allow the possibiltiy of a flat tire, a leak in a radiaitor hose or a dead battery stop me, nor the possibility of getting lost...for all roads lead somewhere.
So with that tomorrow I embark. First travel marker, 1 week out...follow the food plan, drink enough water, exercise and sing inmy heart...for singing makes heavy work light.