Friday, October 07, 2011
tears of JOY!!!!! I finally made it!
I always weigh myself at the same time of day (just after getting up, after using the restroom), and in the same state of dress. And today, my scale showed me 160.0 lbs!!!!! That was my goal....the bottom of the weight range my doctor told me was good for me. When I started this journey, I was in the "obese" catagory at 214 lbs, and now I am near the top of my "healthy" weight range (165 is the top, and the doctor told me he wanted me between 160-165). I have gone from size 16 jeans down to a size 8, and from 1X tops in the plus size section to large/x-large in the misses section. I have changed my weight tracker settings to maintenence mode, but am still going to use my trackers for food/exercise input.
I can't believe I made it! I know 54 lbs isn't a lot, and that there are many people here with much more to lose than that, but for someone with ADHD this was a major struggle. Staying focused was/is very hard for me, as impulsivity/self-control is one of my major ADHD issues.
During this journey, my self-esteem has come up very much. I used to feel like I was good for nothing but a paycheck to my lazy, emotionally abusive, codependent ex-husband, and didn't even have the motivation to put on makeup in the mornings to go to work because I felt like I was destined to be miserable for the rest of my life. I now have more energy and more motivation to take care of myself, because I know how hard it was for me to get where I am now. I am in a much healthier relationship that is progressing well with a man who is wonderful and supportive and can make me feel beautiful just by looking at me. I know I do still have some self-esteem issues to work through, but I now feel like I am worthy of, and deserving of, happiness and love.
As in a previous post I made: Huge thank yous to the SparkPeople staff, my friends on my Sparkteams, and my friends offline, especially Jimmy, who was instrumental in turning my life around! I love you all so very much and can't put into words how much I appreciate your help, dedication, and friendship while I have been going through these changes in my life.