Friday, October 07, 2011
I can remember a time in my life when I climbed on the scale, saw 172 and felt embarrassed that I weighed so much. I am now down to 172, a 35 pound weight loss. I look at myself in the mirror and wonder how in the world I could have possible thought I was heavy.
I am 5 feet 8 1/2 inches tall. I was 5'9" the last time I weighed this much. I am a big person. My hands are 7 7/8" long from the bottom of my palm to the tip of my middle finger. My calves are larger than many people's thighs, yet my legs look shapely. When I look in the mirror I don't look particularly heavy.
Between 16 and 30 years of age, I maintained a weight that was well below a healthy weight for me. I was always hungry. I was always very physically active. My hip bones stuck out and you could count my ribs from 6 feet away. At 172 pounds, I was over my idea of an ideal weight by 37 pounds.
In my thirties, I let my weight drift up. I would fight it and get it back down every few years, but nothing was ever permanent. I tried so many quick fixes that I can't even remember half of them. The weight would just come back on again. When I injured myself so badly in an intense weight loss boot camp that I could no longer stand on my feet for more than 10 minutes at a time, I gave up.
I gained about 23 pounds in the 2 years it took for my injuries to heal. On my 50th birthday my driver's license expired. I hadn't really looked in a mirror for 2 years. I hadn't weighed myself in over 2 years. When the woman at the DMV handed me my driver's license with my photo, I was stunned. I was so depressed.
It took me 2 months to weigh myself. By that time I had already started walking 3 -5 times per week. I read an article about a couple who had lost a considerable amount of weight on Sparkpeople, so I joined. I've been here since May and I've lost a total of 35 lbs since then. I'm taking it slow. If I'm hungry I eat. If I'm injured I take it easy. I have lost weight every week so far, knock on wood. Sometimes I only lose a half a pound a week. I figure the longer it takes me to lose the weight, the longer I'll have to develop good habits. Good habits will help me maintain a healthy weight.
I am not at my goal weight yet. I still have 12 pounds to go. My calculated BMI is still over 25, 25.8 I think. I have 6 more pounds to lose before my BMI is under 25. I know at my goal weight I will be trim, but not unhealthily thin. Even though my calculated BMI is over 25 right now, I am quite happy at this weight. I'm not going to starve myself. I will devote a reasonable amount of time to exercise, but I won't start "doubling up" to get to my goals in a hurry. I'm ok with how ever long it takes me to get to my goal weight.
I FEEL GREAT! I think it's time to reward myself. I'm dreaming of some new jeans and sweat pants.