Friday, October 07, 2011
I'm feeling pretty up and down these days. One day I'm feeling great and the next day in the dumps. Last week I got on three different scales and they all said something different. The range was significant. If I split the difference it still means I've gained three pounds.
I have never been so ashamed of how I looked that it kept me from going to the gym, the beach or the pool. But I did not like those big mirrors at the gym until recently. Yesterday at Zumba class I felt really good. I could see myself in the big mirror and felt pleased with what I saw. However, this morning I wore unflattering grey workout clothes. I looked huge. I looked around the room and once again I am the biggest person in the class. I almost wanted to cry. I've come so far but still have so far to go. What is about me that felt the need to even look around the room in the first place.
One minute I'm up and the next I'm down. Maybe I should just throw out those grey shorts. lol.