Did you ever get the feeling that something imperceptible is happening to you.....
This morning I got up and started preparing for work out, school drop off and work like I do most weekdays.
My husband asks me am I going to the gym. As I put on my work out clothes. I looked at him like yes, and why? Oh he wonders can I give him a ride to the mechanic to pick up one of our cars which is in for repair. I say sure come to the club as a visitor and I will drop you off afterwards.
He doesn't move to get out of bed, then he asks can I come back home after the gym to get him. Like uh, that would make me late for work! You know the job I have?
I tell him come with me he can have breakfast and read the paper while I work out since he did not want to exercise (sore foot). No, he still did not move. Then he pouted!
I felt bad like I should change my schedule or something or skip exercise to do what he wanted. But I didn't. I managed to get the boys in the car but 10 minutes late to start the drive to their friends house to pick him up for school.
My son called the young man and tells him when we leave the house. We arrive 10 minutes later and he is not outside. My son calls him again, He is printing a paper! We wait 6 more minutes. Still no friend. I see his mom's car parked outside his house. At this point we have 10 minutes to get to school. I leave.
I tell my sons I am not going to make them late because their friend did not print his paper the night before! While his mom sleeps in!
Anyway I dropped them off at school on time. I went to the club and worked out and made it work on time too!
Only I felt a little guilty for not making everyone happy.
But lately I've noticed that I have been more decisive and less likely to bend to the desires of others.
I think I have begun to set my own pace and if someone else wants to join me then fine. I will even slow down to pick up others on the way. However, I refuse to relinquish all control or let other people determine my pace.
You know the saying, you cannot change other people, but you can change your reaction to them. That's where I am now.
I know what I need to do, and I am doing it. It is good to have friends and family with you on the journey, but sometimes you have to take the road less travelled alone.
I hope I see some of you
s along the way!