Starting Over is Hard To Do
Wednesday, October 05, 2011
So, I got up this morning and took Izzie for a walk. Then I got ready for work and made myself one of the breakfast sandwiches I used to eat when I was on track and losing weight before. One egg, two slices of ham and about 1/2 an ounce of low fat shredded cheddar on a honey wheat english muffin, no butter. I enjoyed that with a bottle of water then headed to the office. I have a 45 minute drive to work and by the time I got there my stomach was absolutely convinced that it was empty. Sure, my brain was well aware that tummy was just craving the sugary sweet donuts that have been our breakfast routine for the last few months, ever since that Royal Farms opened on the route to work and started selling Krispy Kremes, but my tummy didn't want to hear what the brain had to say; it wanted a donut!
I headed to the coffee pot and made a cup of coffee with almond toffee cremer hoping to curb my sweet tooth that way , but it really didn't help too much, although it did taste great. Finally I gave up and decided that maybe I really was hungry around 10:30. At that point I had some whole grain pretzels and that did the trick for a while. At 1:00 I went to lunch, had a Smart Ones and a yogurt, but still the craving for something sweet was there so I caved in and had a handful of carmel apple candy corn.
I have class tonight, so I either eat dinner out or skip it altogether. My class starts and hour after I leave work and it takes me 50 minutes to get there. I do not pass any places to get something to eat on the way, so I can either run 5 minutes up the road and hit the MickeyD's drive through as soon as I leave work or I can run 5 minutes up the road and go to WaWa when I get there. My other option is to wait until we get our 15 minute break and get something out of the snack machine. Next week I am going to bring a sandwich from home so I have better options. Tonight I think I'm going with the grilled chicken sandwich at MickeyD's, no soda, no fries.
I read back through all of my old blog posts and I remember those days when I was going online to check out restaurant menus and making my choices before I went out. The days when I was disappointed if I only managed to get in 20 minutes on the Wii, the days when I got on the scale and was only fractions of a pound away from my 5 pound goal. I want those days back! I want to set goals and reach them, I want to feel good and full of energy and like I am accomplishing something that is just for me!
Okay, it is hard to do but that does not mean it cannot be done. I am picking myself up, dusting myself off and getting back on the trail. I'm going to make the same small changes I have made before, and I know this time they will be easier because I've already cleared this path once.
~No More Soda~
~Use the Wii Fit Every Day~
As for the Wii, I got batteries last night, got my balance board back up and running and weighed in. I gained 2 pounds from my last weigh in in August, but I am lower than the 205 pounds I was at the doctors in September (by 0.3 pounds). Izzie is up to 21 pounds, which is a two pound weight gain for her, and Patches (my kitty) is down 0.2 pounds to an even 12 pounds.
Well, starting over is hard to do, but here I go again :~)