Wednesday, October 05, 2011
So last night, I was making some carrot cake bars with cream cheese frosting "for a friend". This, combined with recent stresses at work and in my family, created the perfect storm for reverting to OLD behaviors.
After stopping the Kitchen Aid and lifting it up out of the frosting, I began licking off the beater. This turned into a few rather large spoonfuls of frosting, and from there I grabbed a frosted bar and shoved it in my mouth.
In that **VERY** moment, something (I believe it was the Holy Spirit) said in my mind, "Wait, this isn't where you want to go!" I agreed with the voice. I actually reached in and took the unchewed bar out of my mouth and threw it away. I had that miserable sugar-induced coma feeling afterward and had a hard time getting to sleep. Which was only another reminder.... I really DON'T want to go there! I remember what it was like, and it was not a good place.
So today... I could beat myself up for those spoonfuls of frosting, or for even being stupid enough to bake anything and sabotaging myself. But for now, I'm focusing on the victory. Even in failure there is victory if we can learn the lessons!
If you're on a path today that leads where you DON'T want to go, here's your invitation to turn around!