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Week 4, Day 1


Tuesday, October 04, 2011

Wow, I really did it - I ran Week 4, Day 1 of Rookie Runner training today and did all the intervals! When I started out I had every intention of doing my best, but expected to walk at least part of those jog sets. When I finished the run part, I walked back the rest of the way feeling so strange: happiness, humility, guilt, joy - you name it, I was probably feeling some of it. Why did I have such a mixed reaction? Is this 'normal'? I think the guilt was for not believing in myself enough, but the rest.... ??

I was just pondering the mystery of my feelings, and still don't have any answers... this feeling stuff is for the birds! lol But I guess I have to go through it to stop 'stuffing' my feelings down. Too, it could just be spill-over from the rest of my life; it's been a rough couple of days for me.

One thing I know for sure: It's not that I believed that I COULD do it, it's just that I didn't let myself STOP doing it... so for all of you out there that think you probably can't do something - you CAN!
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FREETHEGODDESS 10/6/2011 1:09AM

    Congratulations!!! I have the same strange feelings going on as well. I don't think I can do something. Encourage myself to push through it...even though I still don't believe I can do it. Then, find that I CAN do it and have feelings of elation and disbelief along with worry that I won't be able to do it again. Crazy stuff! But, I can pick and chose what feelings I want to enjoy and dismiss the rest. This is still a learning process for me. I try to find the joy in each moment as I progress toward my future. Good job!
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PJMOGG 10/5/2011 3:24AM

    Congrats on your fantastic progress! I too have found a gamut of emotions on this journey...and I pondered yours? Do we feel happiness and joy one minute, and then the next feel guilt as a form of self-doubt? Like we are never going to stick with this, so don't get too excited!

You are right to ponder and analyze your feelings..I believe it is part of our self-discovery, and something we likely have been avoiding long enough to get us where we are now...what do you think?

thanks for sharing...paula emoticon

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