Tuesday, October 04, 2011
My last blog entry was in January and talked about "The Year". The Year never quite happened. Shauna moved again, I got stressed at work, we both had way too much going on personally, and it all just fell apart. I'd love to say that we needed to stop making excuses, but our "excuses" were short of mentally and physically crippling.
To be honest, neither of us is at a position where The Year could even take off now. The fact that my part of The Year ends in a couple of weeks and hers ends in a couple of months is completely beside the main point. She's still not fully settled and I'm going through a serious financial meltdown. We're both trying though.
At last check, she was back to logging and had been relying mostly on water for hydration (especially since her recent big dehydration incident). Until she gets settled she won't be logging too many exercise minutes.
I, on the other hand, am also back to logging. A week and a half ago I cut out nearly all liquids that weren't water. I'll have iced tea if I'm out and occasionally some juice, but I've been pretty consistent about making sure I get at least 8 8oz glasses of water each day. I'm mostly recommitted to the vegan thing. I've had dairy on two days in the last week and a half and that's because I'm working on clearing out some of the things I currently have (cost saving measure and all). I have a box of instant Cream of Wheat and a box of instant flavored oatmeal at my desk. Every single packet contains either milk or whey so they are not vegan-friendly. They are, however, wallet-friendly since I don't have the option of dumping everything I have and running out to find instant stuff that doesn't have any animal products. I'm slowly getting my calories under control and have pretty much cut between 500 and 1k from the amount I was assuming I had been eating prior to getting started again. Based on my Spark recommendations I have been pretty good at staying within my ranges - been a little high (nothing major) on cals a couple of days, a little high on fat (from mostly PB and/or avocado), and way under on protein (I need to work on that). Carbs have been within range on most days so that's good.
I've worked out a couple of times in the last week and a half, but haven't gotten into a rhythm just yet. That part is probably the hardest. My being stressed all the time with the things going on at work are exhausting. When I get home, I mostly want to crash. It's been difficult to find the motivation to do much of anything these days, but I'm trying -- and it helps that Phil is now on board with all of this. It's always beneficial when two people in the same household are both trying to make efforts and work on themselves. I think I finally have some of the elements necessary to be successful. I might not be able to get everything down right now, but eventually things will start falling into place -- as long as my life doesn't end up getting any more stressful than it currently is because I honestly can't handle much more right now. I'm already burnt out, unmotivated, uncreative, uninspired, stressed and just all-around uninterested in life as a whole so to even get as far as I've gotten in the last couple of weeks is saying something...just hope I can keep it up.