Sunday, March 04, 2007
I had been gaining weight ever since my daughter was born (she turns 12 in May) and had ballooned up to 265lbs. I was so miserable and basicly cut off everyone in my life because of it. I hid on my computer and figured my life was over. That's just so crazy, but so true. I felt no one could like me at that weight and I lost all my character and outgoing personality because I felt worthless.
I had to have my gall bladder removed, developed hypertension which I chose to ignore. I lost my period for a year and had to see a specialist to help me try to get pregnant again, with no luck. I was diagnosed as having polycystic ovaries, something I have recently been reading has a cause-effect relationship with being obese and/or having a high fat diet.
Eventually I couldnt take it anymore and I decided to change my life. I started walking everyday, and started watching what I ate. After losing 20 lbs I decided to get a membership to the rec centre and start working out. I had two appointments with a personal trainer who took me through all the machines and weights and I was off. I did an hour of cardio and an hour of weights (upper body one day, lower body the next) every single day.
I lost about 2lbs per week regularly and eventually got down enough that I felt comfortable taking some aerobic , spinning and yoga classes. I also started cycling everyday. The muscles in my calfs grew quickly and I also started getting comments from people at the gym about how well I was doing. That kept me very motivated.
I eventually moved to a gym that had more interesting classes, they do Les Mills choreographed classes and I do them all. I still do 2hrs a day at the gym every day and cant stand to take a day off. I just adore it and the way it makes me feel.
I didnt find this site until January and have been used to keeping my log of what I eat in a text file on my computer. I like this way much better. I love tracking all the nutrients I am getting each day. I actually found that I dont really need the multivitamin I have been taking because I get all the necessary nutrition each day. That was a surprise to me.
I love buying clothes now. I wear makeup again, I wear jewelry again, I love seeing and talking to people again. My life has started again and I'll never, ever let myself get where I was again. I'm close to the end now, with about 15-20lbs to go and my motivation is as strong today as it was a year ago.