Monday, October 03, 2011
I need to get moving. My number one goal is to actually exercise 7 days a week, even if it's just walking. I have set a goal to lose 10 pounds by Halloween. With a lot of work and support, I KNOW I CAN DO IT!
Yesterday I had a lot of things to think about and I really wanted to blog, but as things do, they've slipped my mind. This journey is being made especially hard for me because I'm dealing with impending death. Not mine, my grandmother's. She's got pancreatic cancer and I'm taking care of her. At 88, she feels like there's no reason to take treatments, and the doctor thinks it won't do much good. So, right now she's fine, depressed, but not in pain.
I think my biggest road block is keeping my mind on MY health and goals. It's so much easier to just forget that I've got problems and worry about her problems. I think most women have this problem. We're brought up to put others before ourselves. Sometimes, we have to put ourselves first in order to be there for others.
My weight loss journey has been and will be a struggle to do what's best for me and not fall back into lifelong habits of eating when I get upset and letting depression take over me.
I WILL do this. I MUST do it NOW!