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Breaking Free

Monday, October 03, 2011

I have been sparse on Sparkpeople for a while now. My life has been way out of balance for months. I have struggled to find my motivation or if I did, to make it last. I have had a lot of issues pop up over the summer that seem to drive my eating. Everything from financial, spiritual, emotional and physical have just not come together. I have spent much time with friends and seeking prayer to only get knocked down again. I really fight emotional eating. I also spend a lot of time on FB and have joined a group of very inspirational women there that are also on the same journey. So, it is hard to keep up with everything everyday. Sparkpeople will always be a part of my journey, I'm just not able to keep up like I once did. Life seems to pull us in all directions and that is where I am at right now. I am going to find that happy place though.

I am currently taking part in a Beth Moore women's study at church. I spend every Sunday afternoon at church and then study daily for an hour or so. The study is called Breaking Free and addresses the things that have a stronghold on us and keep us in captivity. We are on week four and it is getting deep. I am starting to address some issues that have been lifelong and need to come out into the open. Their has been laughter and tears but most of all relationships with real women with a wide range of issues loving and supporting each other past the pain. I can tell this is going to be amazing for me. It is a 10 week course. I know change will not happen over night, but I know that God is going to lead me through and out of the captivity that I have lived under for so long. I know that getting to the heart of our issues is the only way to truly lose the weight and keep it off for life. I'm going to get through this and I am going to break free!

So, between bible study, exercise, cleaning, computer time, kids, vision therapy for my son daily and errands I am pressed for time daily. The only way I could Spark more is to sit on the computer more which is not healthy at all. So, know that I am here. I am still pressing forward to the best of my ability but just not as readily available on Spark as I used to be. I miss spending a lot of time on Spark but I know there are so many other things I need to be doing. I'm trying to find that perfect balance in life right now and it is hard when you have two teenage kids that dirty tons of clothing and dishes and want ran all over the place. Love you guys and I will read your blogs and check in as often as I can. Keep Sparking!!!
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

WENDYLEE15 10/4/2011 8:10AM

    Good luck..I hope that some of the things that you are doing helps you to find what you need and are looking for !!I am to the point that I have realized I really don't think I will ever find the so called "balance" that I want but just go on living one day at a time..and just keep getting back up when being knocked down. You sound like you are going in the right direction and I wish the best for you!! Take care and keep in touch !!
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UNICORN212 10/4/2011 12:11AM

    Balance is a hard thing to find. I hope you have the teenagers doing chores - they need to learn how to do dishes and laundry and how to clean floors, too! They may free up a little "you" time for whatever you need to do. I hope the Bible study helps you find some resolution. One step at a time!

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RUNJEWELRUN 10/3/2011 11:46PM

    That book rocks! Miss you :)

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BLESSED2BEME 10/3/2011 11:41PM

    Taking care of you and your family is the most important part of your journey! We'll be here when you have more time again.

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SCMAMAJONES 10/3/2011 10:44PM

    You are so right!!! Do what you neeed to do. And you're right -- more computer time isn't always the answer, especially if you are trying to become more active. So just know that we love you and we're here if you need us.

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TAICHIDANCER 10/3/2011 9:39PM

    I applaud your "Breaking Free" work. I am convinced that to permanently lose weight each of us must address the issues that cause us to overeat in the first place. I also understand about only having so many hours in a day. But remember you can log onto SP just to use the fitness and nutrition trackers and that only takes a few minutes. Best of luck to you.

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APIRLRAIN888 10/3/2011 9:24PM

    glad you r back

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MRSB929 10/3/2011 8:57PM

    Glad you are finding support in different aspects of your life. SparkPeople doesn't have to be an "all or nothing" support system. Use it how you need it to...whatever best suits your lifestyle. We are all here for you no matter how often you Spark. Wishing you the happiest life!

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LOTUSFLOWER 10/3/2011 8:15PM

    That is so amazing that you are in a bible study on Breaking Free, that book has saved my life, I swear. You will get through this, and I think balancing your life out is a good idea, you need to put your family, church and health first. emoticon

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