Monday, October 03, 2011
I have been sparse on Sparkpeople for a while now. My life has been way out of balance for months. I have struggled to find my motivation or if I did, to make it last. I have had a lot of issues pop up over the summer that seem to drive my eating. Everything from financial, spiritual, emotional and physical have just not come together. I have spent much time with friends and seeking prayer to only get knocked down again. I really fight emotional eating. I also spend a lot of time on FB and have joined a group of very inspirational women there that are also on the same journey. So, it is hard to keep up with everything everyday. Sparkpeople will always be a part of my journey, I'm just not able to keep up like I once did. Life seems to pull us in all directions and that is where I am at right now. I am going to find that happy place though.
I am currently taking part in a Beth Moore women's study at church. I spend every Sunday afternoon at church and then study daily for an hour or so. The study is called Breaking Free and addresses the things that have a stronghold on us and keep us in captivity. We are on week four and it is getting deep. I am starting to address some issues that have been lifelong and need to come out into the open. Their has been laughter and tears but most of all relationships with real women with a wide range of issues loving and supporting each other past the pain. I can tell this is going to be amazing for me. It is a 10 week course. I know change will not happen over night, but I know that God is going to lead me through and out of the captivity that I have lived under for so long. I know that getting to the heart of our issues is the only way to truly lose the weight and keep it off for life. I'm going to get through this and I am going to break free!
So, between bible study, exercise, cleaning, computer time, kids, vision therapy for my son daily and errands I am pressed for time daily. The only way I could Spark more is to sit on the computer more which is not healthy at all. So, know that I am here. I am still pressing forward to the best of my ability but just not as readily available on Spark as I used to be. I miss spending a lot of time on Spark but I know there are so many other things I need to be doing. I'm trying to find that perfect balance in life right now and it is hard when you have two teenage kids that dirty tons of clothing and dishes and want ran all over the place. Love you guys and I will read your blogs and check in as often as I can. Keep Sparking!!!