Not an easy day, but small victories!
Sunday, October 02, 2011
Today was a 'too little sleep, get up too early' kind of day. Then I spent an hour outside in the cold helping film a bit of footage for the play we're doing. Then off to the theater to deal with high drama all day (some of it on stage). I got a healthy breakfast, then a disappointing gyro which I had to chow down in a hurry despite that being one of my favorite foods to savor and I HATE to eat fast! The slow service at the gyro place left me no time and lunch was over before I even had the food in my hand, and I couldn't make ten people sit around and wait while I ate.
Many hours later we were done with rehearsal, and headed off to look at some less expensive houses, and they were horrible - even though they looked quite promising in the ads. One was ok, but again, it was a bit of a mess. On the way home we stopped to grab a bite at Wendys and I succumbed to fries, which was sort of the downfall to my day.
Here's my lesson for the day - fast food is NOT satisfying food. Not at all! I'm hungry again a short time later, and then I'm regretful for all those wasted calories. Fries used to be one of my favorite things, but they're really not anymore, and I don't think I'll miss them. I hope I can remember this next time I have a craving. They're tasteless and salty, and just NOT that good!
So a bit later at home I was feeling one of those 'I want to eat everything in the house' binges coming on. Maybe it was caused by the salty fries? I was hungry, and tired, and cranky, and it seemed like nothing could fill me up. So I drank some water, and tried to wait it out. No dice. So I made myself a big, healthy salad. Nope, I still wanted more substance. So I whipped up a succotash - onions, green peppers, corn and lima beans sauted in a little bit of olive oil and lemon juice. This is one of my favorite side dishes! That did the trick, and for less calories than a candy bar - and I was completely stuffed. Now I can go to bed with a full tummy and catch up on the sleep I missed last night!
I know this has been a tough couple weeks. I didn't even weigh last week. I will weigh on Monday though, and I'll put it down no matter what. I'm pretty sure it will have crept up a little, but that's ok. I know why it happened, and I'm building skills for tough times ahead. The new lifestyle only works if it's one you can stick with through thick and thin, and that's my goal. Instead of seeing this time as slipping back to my 'normal life' before SP, I see it as slipping back into the ABnormal life that made me fat, and I don't want to be there. I want to get back to my new normal, in fact I won't let it completely go, even for a day!
Tomorrow I'm going to the barn, just because I haven't been able to go much lately. Even if I just end up cleaning stalls. I need to get back on track, and that's one of the places I like to have in my life. Working around the barn is good for the body and soul :)
Update: Oh my gosh! I weighed myself and instead of being up five like I was expecting, I was still at my all time low of 225! That sure gave me my happy feeling for the day! I must be doing something right to have maintained through all this stress the last couple weeks.
Have a great Sunday, everyone!