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I'm Happy Here & I Love Where I'm Going!

Saturday, October 01, 2011

Oh, it feels good! The rhythm of slow and steady progress is really taking hold. I have days, lots of days, when I eat far less than ideal, or I ditch exercise, but I get up and try to do it better the next day. I take on teeny-weenie challenges, and when I do those well, I add more and stretch farther. I NEVER give up anymore; I NEVER allow myself to feel like a failure! And because of that, I am succeeding!

This confidence is permeating all aspects of my life. I am proving to myself that I CAN succeed in losing weight, getting fit, and caring well for my body, and this has given me a newfound sense of strength and optimism in other areas of my life. The serendipity of my improving physical strength, is that it is super-charging my mental strength. I have goals; BIG goals, and I now know, without question, that I can and will accomplish them!

Twenty five years ago I stopped living. I packed up all the special bits & pieces that were "me", shut them away in a suitcase, and attached myself to someone else's journey. The reasons for doing so are not important, but the fact that I did that to myself; that I gave up all the promise and purpose that had so driven and defined me prior, IS important. Because that little flame never burnt out, and as I hit middle age, it sparked and demanded my attention! I knew for certain I had to either reconcile to a life not lived, or I needed to make earth-shattering changes, and make them immediately. I made my choice, closed my eyes, and dove headfirst in to the abyss. At that moment, the only thing I knew for sure, was that my second half of life would be filled with all the richness I deserved. I had no idea of the "how", only of the "what": I WANT A LIFE WELL AND FULLY LIVED!!!!!!

And now, I am well on my way. Four years ago I took that dive, and created a vision of where I wanted to be on my 50th birthday. Almost every one of my goals was realistic, yet so very far from my then reality, they seemed unfathomable to my sad and weary soul. Well guess what? Three and a half years in, I have surmounted almost every one of those formerly unimaginable challenges, and I am damn close to completing the final two.

I can't wait until my 50th birthday, six months from now, when, armed with pen, paper, and more dreams, I imagine my action plan for the next 5 years . Who knows what I can do? I can't wait to surprise myself!
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    Great attitude and progress. You are fabulous!
    2357 days ago
    I have a big smile on my face right now reading this! I am so happy to be sharing in your journey! Slow and steady is the way to go!!!

    Bravo my friend!!!
    2357 days ago
  • BECKYB73
    2357 days ago
    Wow I love your attitude it is amazing and with that in your mind you will continue to move mountains and your blog really inspired me alot to just get moving more even if its small steps emoticon BIG emoticon Brenda
    2358 days ago
    Like you I am so happy to have gotten to a place in my life where I am not just existing, but living my own life. It feels so great, and knowing that I don't have to be perfect all the time makes it better. We are living a life that is sustainable for the rest of our lives, and so we will succeed.
    2358 days ago
    I am SO HAPPY for you! :-)
    2358 days ago
    This blog should be read by everyone on Spark. You spirit and attitude are wonderful and infectious. It has given me a big boost. Can't wait to see the post in 6 months.
    2358 days ago
  • YIWEN39
    What an awesome blog!!! Thank you so much for sharing emoticon
    What you wrote, that really hit a chord with me...
    emoticon and best best wishes for your birthday and for your next 5 year plan!
    I so want to follow your example now!!! emoticon again!
    Have a great day :-)
    Eve emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2359 days ago
  • CANNIE50
    "reconcile to a life not lived, or make...changes" AMEN! This is where I was in January, when I committed to SP and making changes to the life I had begun sleepwalking through. Another eloquent expression of what brought you, and I, and others like us, to find one another. emoticon
    2359 days ago
  • THOCK1
    Good going! You've taken charge, and you're going to succeed.

    And I agree about the WTF.
    2359 days ago
    I'm sorry but I simply can't resist -- it cannot go unsaid.... @MYBULLDOGS.....WTF?????
    2359 days ago
    Oh this just made my heart soar!!! I can so relate to the giving up and just moving through life, getting through the days but completely checking out from anything that truly was "me". I am so thankful to have come out of that place, and I think that one of the (many) reasons that you and I can so connect, is because we have both been to that place and can revel in the feeling of climbing out of it.

    I feel like you are approaching your 50th birthday with the same hope and joy as I just approached my milestone birthday. What an amazing feeling to embrace what lies ahead!!
    2359 days ago

    find foods that work with your chemistry. i created this meal on my own. i can't seem to loose weight if i eat any grain products. so one day i experimented.

    i make this mixture for breakfast , lunch and dinner. i have lost 31 pounds in 16 weeks. i cook

    4 large portabella mushrooms sliced, balsamic vinegar, olive oil, 4 large onions sliced, 2 large green peppers, 3 cans green beans, 1 can rutabaga and 5 sliced chicken sausages.

    it makes enough for at least 4 days, three meals a day. total cost is 12 dollars. i buy the mushrooms and chicken at sams club. sounds crazy but it taste good and most importantly it's working. i'm not hungry . if i feel the urge to cheat i go get a fork full of my mixture. i chew very slowly as to enjoy my meal.

    i have added a small banana and grapes for my snacks and to be a fix for my sweet tooth.

    you can add other foods into your menu. just know what works with your body chemistry.

    I have gone from 198 to 167 pounds. i can now fit into a size 14 comfortably. i feel so much better. think of carrying a 2 year old around your waist every minute of every day. no i am not done. on the obese chart i have gone from being obese to just plain fat. my goal is to drop another 22 pounds. then i will be happy, healthy and never allow myself to get in this condition again.

    one might say eating the same food every day would get boring. not true. when you look in the mirror and can see the difference it's totally worth it. once i reach my goal i will change my menu. not until then.

    portion sizes are critical to your success. exercise has to become a way of life. good luck

    2359 days ago
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