Thursday, September 29, 2011
I really am not an emotional eater for sadness/anger/etc. but my stress level is usually low/none because I don't let much get to me. I am really good at leaving work at work and enjoying my time at home. I haven't experienced high stress like I am right now with my job responsibilities and I was not prepared to deal with this and I have found that I can eat fine during my meals, but it's the snacking that gets me and the little things that I forget to track. I have gained back a lot of what I lost and that is a hard thing to deal with emotionally. It really makes me want to just give up but it also has lit a fire in me that I really need right now.
I decided that I really need a good kick in the behind and decided that regardless of my workload, I need to stop taking work home and just get what I can done at work to lower my stress and give me some ME time away from work. So after tonight (because I am taking a little work home tonight) I am going to continue to work hard while I am at work but when I go home, I'm going HOME. I am going to start fitting exercise in (right now I'm getting very little because I am taking work home) and I am going to stop snacking. The thing is I am not even hungry when I snack, it's just because I am stressed. And I know exercise will help deal with the stress but I haven't had time to exercise because of working at home, so it has been a VERY vicious cycle. So I figure by not taking work home, I will be reversing the cycle..I will have time to exercise which will help deal with my stress which will help me deal with my snacking.
This has been a long, hard process for me to go through because I have never been stuck in an emotional eating situation before now so I haven't known how to deal with it. I signed up for the Trick or Treat Trot 5k and I plan to walk/Run it. I also joined the 5K Your Way Walk/Job Training Program which I will start on Sunday, my first day of the workout week. I'm already tracking my food so I will continue that, too. I have, for the first time since I started this journey in January, set real, actual goals.
Lose 1.5 lbs a week average for the rest of this year
Walk and/or jog 3 days a week
Strength Train 2 days a week
Start talking positive to myself about my body image vs. negative
Blog at least once every week or two