Advertisement -- Learn more about ads on this site.


    LIVENLOVELIFE   6,310
SparkPoints
5,500-6,999 SparkPoints
 
 
And in the right corner weighing in at.....

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

aaaahhhhhh 226.4 as of 9/26/11.

STUPID! WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF? YOU'RE NEVER GOING TO BE HAPPY. YOU DON'T DESERVE SOMEONE GREAT. YOU HAVE NO SELF CONTROL. YOU'RE FAT AND UGLY.

Wow, writing those things were really really hard, especially the last one...but those are things that go through my mind pretty much on a daily basis but particularly when I step on the nasty scale and see that ugly number. Why do we say these things to ourselves? I read them back and I cringe. I would never EVER say those types of things to someone I care about so why do I say them to myself?

It's time to stop. It's time to kick all of those thoughts to the curb. I not only want to be healthy physically, but I want to be healthy mentally and emotionally, and saying things like that to myself is DEFINITELY not healthy. So negative Nancy, I'm sorry but you're just not welcome in this beautiful brain of mine anymore.

I spent the last two weeks in Europe and it was AMAZING!! Future blog with pictures to come. But I had so many thoughts on the trip about how I didn't like a picture because I had a double chin or was constantly comparing myself to my skinny friends I was with. Those aren't really fun ways to spend your time while on vacation! I don't want to be that person anymore. I knew before going on the trip that I needed to make some changes when I got home because for the 3 weeks prior I'd been crazy sick and had been eating like crap and hadn't been to the gym. Yes that's right, 5 weeks of nasty food and no gym.

Anyways, I knew I needed to start with the basics again. Stop comparing what I can do now to what I could do in 2007 & 2008. I let ALOT of things slip these past couple of years. Basic things such as drinking water, eating fruits and veggies, doing workouts I enjoy, etc.

It's ok to only do one class a night at the gym versus two. What's not ok is forcing myself to do a cardio class followed by a ST class and maybe yoga because I should get in two ST classes that week. I need to do workouts that I enjoy and for the right reasons.

It's ok if I don't count calories as long as I am enjoying my food and eating in moderation. What's not ok is limiting myself to a certain number of calories when my body is telling me it wants more which ultimately end up in me binging. What's not ok is forcing myself to eat celery when I really want is a chocolate bar. I need to be better about listening to my body and what it wants without going overboard. Obviously I know that eating a candy bar for every meal is not healthy for me but a dessert a day is not the end of the world.

It's ok if I'm really tired and don't want to go to the gym. What's not ok is driving home from work and trying to talk myself into going to the gym even though if I closed my eyes while driving I could probably fall asleep. I need to remember that getting a sufficient amount of sleep is just as, if not more, important than working out.

I feel like these last few months of the year are really going to be good for me. I have been pretty MIA from Spark this summer but I'm committed once again. I need to blog, I need to get involved in some groups, and I need to keep up with the challenges.

More to come...someone actually wants me to work - hmph.

SHARE
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

STEFANIE822 10/4/2011 12:53PM

    Hello hello pretty lady!!! Im so happy to hear that you are going to shove that beotch Nancy away for good!! She is telling you all kinds of nasty lies!! It really sounds like you are on the right track. You know what you need to do, and you can and will do it! I have 1500000% faith in you girl!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
BOOTS1221 9/28/2011 6:47PM

    Hey, stop saying those things, that's my friend you're talking about!!

I love these revelations you had... what's ok and not ok. You are on the right path girl, and I know you can do this. We are here for you and I have seen you have success in the past, you can do it again!! xoxox

Report Inappropriate Comment
KRZYKAT3 9/28/2011 4:24PM

    hmmm, I would say from your profile pic you are pretty and no where near what I would call ugly. Go ask a good friend who will be honest how they would describe you! Bet it contains NONE of the words you used!!

WECLOME BACK!

Report Inappropriate Comment
DAMIENDUCKS 9/28/2011 1:31PM

    ugh you're so right...no one in their right mind would ever tell a loved one anything remotely resembling that, but we don't bat an eye about yammering a steady stream of it to ourselves...so kudos to you for having a great plan and a great new attitude!!

also, I dunno what your schedule looks like these days, but if you ever want a post-work fitness buddy, the Eagan Y has some decent classes on Tues & Thurs that I've been hitting up recently (pump & flow, to be precise!)

Comment edited on: 9/28/2011 1:31:28 PM

Report Inappropriate Comment
PAPER_WINGS18 9/28/2011 1:14PM

    Glad to see ya back at it, girl! YOU CAN DO IT! Writing these things down is the first step. You want this- you just need to put yourself and your needs first! We are here for ya! :)

Report Inappropriate Comment
BECKY_LYNN84 9/28/2011 12:56PM

    Good job for coming back! You can do it!! Just take one day, one meal at a time.

Report Inappropriate Comment

Add Your Comment to the Blog Post


Log in to post a comment.
 


Other Entries by LIVENLOVELIFE