Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Let me start by saying that for 25 days out of 30, I'm a very positive, happy person. Let's not talk about the other 5.
I started this with the statement about being happy because I think it really influences my weight loss. By that, I mean it works against my weight loss. I'm pretty thankful and just tickled by the life I've been given and I celebrate that happiness. With food. And that's a problem.
Eating is so completely tied to happiness (and wealth but that's another post for another day) in my mind that the thought of not going out to eat or passing up a special occasion makes me feel sad. Almost physically sad.
I've lost weight before, but I really develop an on diet/off diet mentality. I cannot seem to stick to a diet (or eating plan, whatever). I picked up a copy of Intuitive Eating and I get it. I'm just afraid that my food issues are a little more severe than the average person who needs to lose 25 lb and the ideas of Intuitive Eating might not get me there. I'm also in mental health field, and there's a lot of Mindfulness approaches to eating. I get that too. But really, I think that eating 1 raisin for 1 minute and taking an hour to eat each meal and totally, totally focusing on each bite is a little beyond what I have capacity for right now.
So what can I do? Right now? I can focus on eliminating mindless eating. I may not be able to give each and every bite my full attention, but I can pay attention to the fact that I'm eating. Sit down. Close my office door and turn off my computer during lunch.