Monday, September 26, 2011
Re yesterday's blog, case in point:
9:00am - Hurt feelings!
9:01am - Head spinning!-what to do?-ouch!-what to do?-ouch!-hurts!-spiraling!-wh
at to do?
9:03am - Food-fatty food....lots of it...
9:05am - Pizza?
9:07am - Gotta get dressed first-gotta wait for pizza parlor to open...ouuuuuch..
9:08am - Shower...read blogs..read friend feed...get dressed...
9:45am - Chipotle? (self to self: "At least it's quality food"..and still stuff-worthy)..
9:46am - Maybe Chipotle AND M&M's? A long haul numbing? Zone out for hours?
9:47am - Yes, my former demon! I need you! I want you! Ahhh, the comfort of the familiar..
9:48am - Grocery store-M&M's on sale-meant to be! Too far to Chipotle-can't wait...
9:49am - Freezer Aisle -hmmmm, corn dogs? Gross& totally binge-worthy..yes, corn dogs..
10:15am- First corn dog down the hatch-(from microwave)-wait for #2 to brown in oven..
10:30am-Second corn dog down..
10:40am-Check nutrition label..(cos I'm still gonna track it)...
10:41am-Hmmm..crapola food but so far only 460 calories..bit of a surprise..
10:45am-Listen to tinkle of M&M's as 12.6oz. drop into glass bowl..ready for a fix..
11:00am-Uhhhh.....these don't taste so great- kinda full- think I'm done..
11:05am-Measure what remains in bowl- 8.25oz- therefore ate 4.35oz=640 calories..
11:07am-Enter binge into tracker..1100 calories
11:08am-1100 calories????? Day is still salvageable!!
And I'm OK now! My past M.O. was to down that whole baby no matter how damn sick it made me feel, which I had every intention of doing today! Stop eating a bag of M&M's only a quarter of the way through? What?? Like abandoning a lover! ME???? Something's changed...something has definitely changed...