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FAIL.

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Since I've returned from vacation a little over a month ago, I've been bouncing around between 198 and 202. I finally changed my ticker to 200 today.
I'm no longer in ONEderland. It's real.

I started to get my eating back in line last week, but still not exercising. I want to understand WTF I am doing to myself...and at the same time I don't give a crap about the WHYs, I just want to DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

My pants are snug. I am lazy. I am tired. I have a problem with sugar. I'm turning 40 in a month.

I can't think of anything nice to say about where I am at right now.
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STARLITEGIRL44 10/21/2011 8:43AM

  What you are ? A awesome rocking hot lady who is a wonderful wife and best mom and your a unstopple woman who can do anything she puts her mind too that's who are so go for it !! You fight for the right for your goals you want and work hard. YOU CAN DO IT !!
Time to fire you up !! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ANEPANALIPTI 9/27/2011 10:00AM

    You're damn young, that's something positive!! You're not crippled! You CAN workout. Most importantly, you've DONE IT BEFORE!! U might REALLLLYYYY not want to right now, but that doesn't mean you'll NEVER want to again ever!

Girlllllllllllllllll, I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL. And if anything, just know you're not alone. emoticon

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LOOZINITNOW 9/26/2011 6:38PM

    I've been here too many times to count but the others are right. Do not waste energy beating yourself up of worrying about the whys. You know what to do. Focus on the positive. Make slow, doable changes. You are going to get this and you are going to be it!

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VAMANOS 9/25/2011 11:58AM

    It's a bump in the road, nothing more. The key is to figure out what will motivate you to get back on track, and then just do it. Beating yourself up about it solves nothing, but it does give you an excuse to wallow instead of doing something about it...so get with the program, girl! emoticon

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MOJO_RISIN 9/24/2011 9:19PM

    hey lady, i am sitting at 214.2 - so i feel your pain, a few months back i was 205, a few months before that i was 200, the worst part is i never even stopped working out, just cut back on time and intensity in the heat, but didn't adjust my eating, alas getting it all back in line, ramping up activity & hoping the scale reflects so in time....at least i haven't gone up a pant size, but i hear ya on the tightness - i refuse to let it all go, a stumble is a lesson learned and a reason to push fwd. i hope u can get back into the swing of wrkts, short walks, dancing around the house, running up and down the stairs, any and all of those would get you started. i am sending you strength and determination because i dont want you to find yourself a year from now back where i started. i am consoling myself that 15 lbs is better than 90....xoxoxo! u are not alone in this battle!

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SPARKLEIIGHGAL 9/24/2011 3:27PM

    Try not to get down about it but bounce back and say I CAN do it. I have been plateaued for over a year now and trying not to let it get me down.

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OLDERDANDRT 9/24/2011 3:20PM

    Fail? Nah!!! This too, shall pass!!! Just get you head straight!!!! Vacation is over. Sad, but true. There will be other vacations and if you get back on board, you'll look and feel even better when that time comes!! Come on, sweetie!! emoticon I've been having pity parties like this for myself for more years than I care to admit to, so don't you go there!!! It's just not worth it. Get back in the race!! Let's go, let's go, let's go!!!!!! emoticon emoticon

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TEMPEST272002 9/24/2011 2:39PM

    There's no fail here. It's a life time journey. Just by facing the numbers, you stepped right back on track. Besides "onederland" is just a number on the scale. It's not like one crosses that line & suddenly becomes a better person because of it. The ONLY thing you must do is not give up. That's all.

When I feel like I'm not moving forward, sometimes the best thing is to scale back. I make my weekly goals ones I can achieve fairly easily. After a week of success, I'm ready the following week for more challenging goals.

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DARKTHOR 9/24/2011 2:00PM

    You are blogging, you are thinking about it. Write down some goals for the next week and achieve them. Get yourself moving in the right direction and believe in yourself.

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ALWAYSCHANGING 9/24/2011 11:34AM

    We only.fail when we entirely give up. Have you given up?! No my dear you haven't. I know youhaven't. You know why? Because you're not a quitter. Changing your ticker was a way of acknowledging that you've stumbled and identifies for you a new starting point.you mentioned that you are getting your eating back on track thats moving forward. You know you have to workout, thats your next move. Do 15 minutes today. 20 tommorrow as nd build it back into your lifestyle. You can do this. emoticon i believe in you, now start believing in yourself again.

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NSTARSMITH 9/24/2011 11:25AM

    Woah, been there, done that. My primary suggestion is don't waste your energy beating yourself up for getting here, just start making one wise choice at a time back to ONEderland! Hang in.

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