Friday, September 23, 2011
I have NOT been good to Mi Selph lately. I have been saying bad things and feeding bad things to Mi Selph. What a horrible thing to do to someone!Mi Selph and I worked so hard to loose 47 lbs. then I got bored, or tired or angry. Frustrated. Who knows, but I started taking it out on Mi Selph. Poor abused thing. She needs love, support and kindess. Not mean selfish misdirected anger.
Slowly slowly, bit by bit, the weight has been creeping back on. I have been looking at how far Mi Selph has to go - not how far she has come. I lost sight of the goals I Mi Selph had set. I was feeling lack this was a hopeless task and Mi Selph would never get where she was going.
So, today, right now, I am pushing the restart button on my relationship with Mi Selph. I am reminding her that she is a warm, loving, kind and funny person. She is worth all the effort I have to make to help her be healthy. She deserves the best fruit and vegies the market has to offer. She deserves to have pre boned and skinned chicken breasts. She deserves to have time with her lady friends.
Yesterday was the introduction meeting to a new wellness program at work. Since one of the huge let downs for Mi Selph last year was NOT winning ; I am reminding Mi Selph that this year it is about helping everybody else be successful. Take care of Mi Selph and not worry about the contest, just worry about making sure my coworkers find humor and joy in their journey. Her greatest strength is her compassion and giving spirit. (It helps that one of the co workers was impressed that Mi Selph had kept the weight off - still - a year later. She did not notice that Mi Selph had gained 6 lbs!)
I told myself that she needs to be proud that she is still here, sparking away. Good for you! You did not give up. So, you've had a set back. SO WHAT!!!!! This is not a race. There is no prize here for losing the most the fastest. The prize is going to be continued good health and energy. For Mi Selph.
Think about the "Slowest Loser" guy. He was not in a big 'ole hurry. Selph, selph, selph, it does not matter that you fell off the path for awhile. Drag your bruised, scratched and tired backside back on up there and get moving. Take the lessons you've learned and make them assets.
Mi Selph, I love you, you make me laugh. I've been told that you are a warm, loving and giving person. Build on that. Gain strength from that.
And back away from that Cheesecake!