Every weekend I tell myself that this is the week that I will actually stick to my "work out" plan. And every week, for the last 2 months I have faltered. It has left me feeling down and upset with myself.
This weekend, I told myself the same thing. It didn't start off the way I planned - I had a 10 mile run on Saturday that I pushed to Sunday. But I got out there Sunday morning and I ran those miles! And I felt great (not physically - physically I felt horrible, but emotionally I felt GREAT!). I tried to tell myself I could feel that way EVERY day that I completed a work out!
So, Monday I had as a rest day (due to Sunday's run). Tuesday, I planned to go to the track for some trackwork. As usual, I brought my workout clothes and changed into them after work...and WENT TO THE TRACK!!! I did a 45 minute workout of speed intervals and even recalibrated my Nike+. SO far - so AWESOME!
Wednesday, I had as a cross-training day. I didn't get off work until late, and started to feel myself talk myself out of my work out. So, I made a deal. I had to go to the grocery store for stuff for dinner. And I could either do that, make dinner, and try to get my work out in (it was about 7pm at this point). Or, I could walk to the grocery store (8 blocks away), get stuff for dinner, and walk back. It wasn't my planned exercise - but I also hadn't planned on working until 6pm!
And movement is movement, right? Anything that gets my heart rate up and gets me moving can't be bad - it's better than nothing (which is most likely what would have happened). So, I did just that! I power-walked to the store. I picked up groceries, and carried them back (heavy, but not impossible) the 8 blocks. Then I made a healthy dinner and congratulated myself. Not only had I gotten a work out in, I was allowing myself to be flexible.
Old Jenn would have said: "Walking 16 blocks is NOT exercise, you can do harder work, it doesn't count". Then I would have not done any exercise (b/c I have such a black & white thought process sometimes). But, instead, new Jenn said: "Hey, it's movement and it's better than nothing! So go move!" YAY NEW ATTITUDE!
Thursday, I had a 35 minute run planned. Once again, working late, errand running, picking up a friend from an appointment, etc. put me home after 7pm. It was getting dark and I don't like running in the dark. But, I told myself - it's just 35 minutes of my life...which is a drop in the bucket, even when compared with the day. And I can do whatever I want (I really wanted to sit and read) when I got home! So, I put on my running clothes, grabbed my iPod and hit the street. Not only did I put in my awesome 35 minutes...I put in another 10 because I was feeling SO good! 45 minute run accomplished - and it felt GREAT!
Today, I weighed in...and I LOST 2 pounds from last week!!!!!!! OMG I AM SO EXCITED! I waivered with the last 2-3 pounds for about a month and they finally came off, as of today! YAY for my success!!!!
I'm so happy because I have been in a funk the last few weeks. And I managed to pull myself out of it. I can see the sunshine!! And it looks SO GOOD!
Today is a rest day - but tomorrow I have a 12 mile run scheduled. I'm nervous, it's going to be difficult, but I will do it! Because I LOVE this feeling of satisfaction and pride!!!!
I am so excited with what I have done! YAY ME!
To celebrate - I think I'll get myself a pedicure this weekend. Or maybe a massage.
I also need to start posting current pictures...with before/afters (total weight loss while on this journey, so far, 18 pounds!!!!)...
TODAY IS GOING TO BE A GREAT DAY! Scratch that. THIS MONTH IS GOING TO BE A GREAT MONTH!!!!