Wednesday, September 21, 2011
i've been gone-- as usual. working hard, entertaining visitors, and maintaining weight about 10 pounds more than i was last summer, when i was lithe and lean and muscley and foxy feeling. granted, 187 wasn't my final goal-- but if i can feel that way again by the time i visit family in florida for xmas, i will feel really proud of myself.
i've been overwhelmed by depression lately and also having my period nonstop. it's resulting in low hemoglobin levels and anemia-- so my fatigue isn't just depression or something else i can't respect-- it's measurable. this information, from the first doctor i have liked in a long time, helped me realize i need help, and i am pursuing it. today i started a low dose of prozac and when my "real" seeming period ends, i will start yaz, in hopes that it will help to regulate my period and lower the amounts of blood i am losing.
today i went to therapy and i'm not sure i'm going to stick with that, but i have gone to about 8 acupuncture sessions and even though i'm not sold on those yet, i'm going to try to stick them out. i'm trying to remember that i've only got this one life, and it's not defeat if i need medication or pep talks to get back on track. i know exercise will help but i'm overwhelmed with anxiety and exhaustion right now. hopefully i will hop onto a food pic blog challenge for next month and keep my intake in check as i start to get ramped up to get my output relevant. y'all are doing great and looking great and i can't wait to join you. xo