Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Ugh, I feel awful! I ate way too much, made far too many bad choices, and this is the result:
CALORIES CARBS FAT PROTEIN
Totals: 2079 261 80 77
Today I started off pretty good. I felt awful last night, I went to bed a 730pm. When I woke, not long before noon, I ate a hard boiled egg & a del monte fruit cup. Not bad at all. Then I was told to check my husbands email, he should be getting the official hiring letter from the job he is trying for. I checked it, there it was, I was sooo excited, then I opened it.
"Unfortunately, you have not been chosen to move forward in the selection process.However, your resume and/or candidate profile information will be maintained in our active files. Please remember to keep your candidate profile unlocked as our recruiting team continuously searches our database to identify candidates with specific qualifications."
Heartbroken, I thought we finally got a break in life, I thought something was actually going to go right! I was wrong, again. He called his friend who works for the company, he had just talked to his boss, who had told him to tell Rich to check his email. He doesn't know what happens, but swears it must be a mistake. I really hope so. I really do.
So, went looking for something to eat, not even realizing that it hadn't been very long since I had ate the egg & fruit. I found some ham & cheese hot pockets in the freezer, ate them without even reading the calories. Then my mom asked me to take her to Waynesburg to see her parents. On our way she wanted McDonalds, had 2 cheeseburgers plain, a medium fry, and a medium root beer! While eating it I said to myself "Stop, you don't need this, and you aren't even hungry." Then I took another bite. I finished it all. Stopped to see my aunt who works at the dollar store, bought a box of nerds, ate about 2 servings of those. Got home, and ate a blue bunny black cherry chocolate bar thingy...
I sat at the computer & forced myself to do the calorie count. I guess it could have been worse, but that number on the fat was aweful!
Now I am trying to watch some inspirational videos, listen to some music, and talking to God to try & lift my spirits so I can move on from this.
Thanks for reading, I just needed to put it all out there.