Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Ive hit that mental block, The furthest I have ran so far is 8- Saturdays run called for 10(didnt reach goal)- and todays was 9-- Saturdays is 12!!
I waited to long this morning to run, so I just went in the 80 degree weather- which was the worst Idea ever! I was HOT, mentally fighting, and cramping. I only ran 6 just now :(
I then preceded to burst into tears with my biggest fear in my mind-- WHAT IF I CANT DO THIS! .... I mean I was SPENT just now only running 6! And i still had 3 more to go! Im needing that extra push of motivation, I need it to carry me through, I have come so far- already have completed 8 long weeks of training at 4-5 days a week. Im for sure a perfectionist, so when I see one little mistake for some reason I feel like all the work I have already done counts for nothing...much like how I managed my weight through out my life. Sending myself into this neverending cycle of thinking im never good enough and then beating myself up over it.
Please send me some motivation!!!!! I guess I should go back to BASICS...one day, one mile at a time. Thats all my brain can handle for now haha