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TERESA159
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Mirror, Mirror, you've finally stopped lying to me!

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

I've reached some kind of really cool tipping point in my journey to fitness and health. Used to be, when I looked at my body in the mirror, I mean REALLY looked, like in that brightly lit dressing room where you are literally FORCED to actually SEE yourself, there was such disparage between the mental picture I maintained of myself and cold, lit reality. Seriously, I knew my butt was Kim K big but it's THAT BIG!?!?!?! And that blubber where my stomach should be, that's not mine and what the heck happened to my perky boobs...you get the picture. Since I started this Sparking thing in January I've not had many opportunities to really see myself in a full length mirror. We don't have one. The one on the dresser, if you step back far enough gives you about 80% but then you're so far away, you don't really get the complete story, plus from what I've learned in dressing rooms, it's just best if I don't look. Kind of like those gory accidents you happen upon now and then, just DON'T look. So, I wasn't looking and while I so busy not looking amazing things were going on.
I knew my hard work has been working. My clothes got bigger until I had to down-size and then down-size again and my scale, although still stubborn, did reflect a lighter, fitter me. This weekend I was shopping at Mall of America (ok, so it is all the same stores we have at home but it's EVERY STORE WE HAVE AT HOME!! All in one place! Yippee!) for some cute clothes to wear to a tech conference I am attending in Boston in November. I want trendy, cool, well fitting outfits. I tried on pants in Nordstrom Rack and the 10s were too big! The 8's fit. Yes, 8s!!!!!!! 8s!!!!!!! 8s!!!!!! You heard that, right? I said 8!!!!! I haven't been an 8, ever. Seriously. Never. In high school I wore size 9, which I am pretty sure and correct me if I am wrong, translates into a ladies size 10. I am an 8. Ha.
AND, here's the really cool thing. I looked. I took a darn good look at my size 8 body. Right there in the brightly lit dressing room. A long and good and turning around kind of look and dammit if I look really, really different than last time I braved a peek. This ole body is looking trim! It's looking fit! It's looking good! It's looking size 8ish! My huge butt? Very unlike Kim K's. My mushy stomach? I see muscles! Still some flab there or maybe that's skin? But at least the top portion is muscle. The boobs still aren't prime but I've chalked them up as casualties of yo-yo dieting and four pregnancies. They are nicely shaped and don't point to my toes yet so I'll take em and I'll happily renew my membership to the Itty Bitty Titty Committee.
So, I'm in a great place. I did see that I do still have work to do. I am not done yet. But I AM GETTING THERE! And this whole journey I've not really felt like I was getting there. And my workouts? Easy! They seem easy lately. Even the days where I push myself hard to burn 1000 calories, those days don't kill me. My breathing when I run or walk on steep inclines? It's good. No more huffing and puffing and feeling like I am dying. So this is cool. Body is getting so much better that I can SEE it and my fitness level is amazing too. Can I get a big WooHoo?

This is what I felt like in that dressing room.
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  • v REYVE01
    WOW............. you need to proud of yourself.... emoticon . I was a size 9 in high school too. They don't have size 9 anymore. Forget what I told you about Kris Jenner and her style of clothes... I was wrong. She wears old lady clothes..lol. With all the funky patterns. I must have been thinking of someone else.

    Smiles...
    1742 days ago
  • v EJOY-EVELYN
    So celebrating your successfulness in reaching a brand new size. WooHoo! Hopefully we're prepared now to rock this great 5% challenge we're in. Stay the course and continue to feel the awe of improved heath.
    1744 days ago
  • v ONESTUBBORNTART
    Yay! Enjoy it, you're earned it!
    1744 days ago
  • v CHAR1970
    Woo hoo! Good for you! You rock!
    1744 days ago
  • v PMISHAMRA
    Ok I am envious!!!!! lol It is so good to read your happiness!!! Congrats on reaching size 8 but an even bigger congrats on seeing your progress!!
    1745 days ago
  • v THETURTLEBEAR
    AWESOME blog. It makes me so happy to ready this! And my boobs will happily join your committee. SIze 8! Freaking size 8!!!
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    1746 days ago
  • v COLUMBINE2
    O-U-T-S-T-A-N-D-I-N-G! I know...we're not supposed to use all caps...but baby...you're wearin' 8's and lookin' hot...so the heck with internet etiquette. Wow....that must have been so thrilling...dressing rooms in a store sent me directly to DQ with discouragement! You're so smart to gt that body trimmed down now...it just gets harder the longer you wait!

    1,000 calories/day also sends my head swimming! No wonder you have a new body!

    Post some photos of you in your new clothes! And have a great time at your upcoming conference. Bet Randy's lovin' having such a fit wife!
    1746 days ago
  • v KOFFEENUT
    Good for you for finally LOOKING!!! You ROCK!

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    1746 days ago
  • v NEWMAC2011
    That is totally AWESOME! BIG emoticon ! That's so incredible but it shows how hard work pays off and you have been working hard. You're just going to get better and better. Kudos to you; I'm so thrilled for you!
    1746 days ago
  • v THEHONESTME
    Here's your WOO HOO: WOOOO FREAKIN' HOOOOO :)
    I love how excited you are - it made me smile reading your blog - I was rootin' for ya!! I would have liked to have been right there with you jumping up and down with excitement! BUT, I'd have to hold my boobs down while jumping - not pretty! and yeah, mine like looking at my knees now! BAWWWHAHAHA
    Great blog - congrats!!
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    1746 days ago
  • v MRS.PRINCIPAL
    8's are my goal size! Congrats on getting there.
    What an awesome experience in a dressing room! HATE dressing rooms.
    Have to be glad you are a teddy bear when you have 1000 calorie workouts! Way to ROCK IT!







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    1746 days ago
  • v JANESSMI
    1000 calorie workout. Wow. emoticon on the size 8s. You certainly picked a hot hot model for your look alike. Enjoy those new clothes.
    1746 days ago
  • v NWILKER
    Holy crap you crack me up!!!
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    Yeah you and congrats on the hard work!!
    1746 days ago
  • v LISAINMS
    BIG WOO HOO!!

    Wow, what an awesome corner to turn. 8? Seriously? I hope you wear those pants every day so you remember how good you look in them and how hard you have worked to get there. Caution: you are entering the total hotness zone.
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    1746 days ago
  • v MCLAFLIN
    emoticon Of course you can get a woo hoo! How awesome are you, and the changes you are working so hard for! (I can't wait to get where you are, I'm still not liking those big, wide store mirrors. I like the narrow ones!) You are one of the few who have stuck it out, and it is paying off in huge dividends for you! How great that your workouts don't make you feel like you are dying anymore! Sweat is emoticon

    Keep it up, Teresa! That body is smokin'! emoticon
    1746 days ago
  • v SLIMMERANG
    Great job! You have worked hard for it and deserve it! I hope some day I too have one of those moments!
    1746 days ago
  • v LOTUSBURGER
    CONGRATS!!! emoticon emoticon
    1746 days ago
  • v NWCOUNTRYDANCER
    Awesome!! What a great feeling. You should be very proud of yourself. emoticon
    1746 days ago
  • v MARIAGRACE111
    Fantastic! I totally understand where you're coming from. Love this!
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    1746 days ago
  • v ZIPCONTROL
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Oh wow ! That is so seriously cool !!
    1746 days ago
  • v STUFFNEARTABOR
    Ha, ha, well said. Congratulations!
    1746 days ago
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