Tuesday, September 20, 2011
So, I don't have any friends in Michigan that I hang out with on a regular basis. I only have one or two good friends, and even those friendships aren't regular. I miss having friends, I miss feeling like I have friends. So I got to thinking, am I a good friend? And what does being a good friend mean to me? Do other people feel the same way about what makes a good friend? I know when we have children, we start young teaching them how to be good friends through sharing, through conversations, etc. As an adult I have a hard time. I've made a few friends, then they wanted me to share too much and when I couldn't buy/pay, they were gone (not really a friend, more a mooch?) Then through conversations, I don't know what to talk about? I have a wonderful little family (dog/kid/hubby), I do love my job, home, car. Other than that, I don't have much to talk about? I LOVE to have fun. I love to laugh, be silly, crazy. I love bowling (but I am horrible, if I hit 101 it's a good game lol), puttputt can be fun, cards and board games, PS3 & Wii, stuff like that. I've suggested to other couples, we should (play games/go bowling) and never had anyone that followed up. Everyone is always too busy (including us too). So I don't quite know how to do this as an adult. Work/Church/Other parents aren't viable options. I'm not sure? And I wonder how other people see me when they meet me? Do they think I'm totally insane? Or am I nice and fun? or what? lol. In general I don't care, but I would like to have friends, who I would care. . so I guess I have to start caring more first? ugh.