Tuesday, September 20, 2011
So, yesterday was my 19th wedding anniversary. It was hard yesterday and today because everything was 19...we were engaged on April 19th, married on Sept 19th and had a our 19th wedding anniversary (our last one). It is still very hard for me to accept the way our marriage has gone. I want so much for everything to be good again, but it can't.
It was/is a very tough time emotionally, but I am very pleased that I managed to stay in my range! I hope I can do really good today to. I'm so afraid of sliding back off the path if I get too down again. If I can make it today I should be good.
Thankfully, there are things to do this evening so I will have things to take my mind off everything. As long as I can control myself this morning and when I come home, I'll have it made!
I'm very pleased with my progress so far. Wed. will be three weeks since I've been back on track. I've lost about nine pounds...only about 11 from where I was before I fell off track. Only about 27 pounds from a total 100 pounds lost! I must stay focused! I can do it!