Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Again and again and again. The cycle has not been broken. Life intervenes. I get off track and I come back heavier than ever! I feel great defeat. Will I ever discover the real reason for my obesity? I know the cause is eating more junky foods than I should and eating less healthy foods than I should. I know that the portions I eat are too large. I know what a healthy meal should look like. There has to be an underlying cause. I know all the right things to do and know that I am the one putting my health at risk yet I continue. I certainly wouldn't allow my family members to do something this destructive! So why do I allow myself? How do I end this cycle? I have been so certain in the past that this time would be different and yet here I am again - defeated and heavier. . . and disgusted with myself.