Monday, September 19, 2011
I have struggled with anxiety all my life. I now have the tools to self-talk myself out of most cognitive distortions now. It is interesting watching my thoughts as I continue on this weight loss journey. As I lose I feel anxious that I will be less of a person/mother; as I maintain, I feel anxious that I am sabotaging my efforts; if I stop tracking for a bit, I am "doomed" to be fat; etc.
Well, I am done with it. I have been looking the stupid b*&%h that is my distorted self in the eye and telling her to jog on.
Exercises I am practicing:
*Untying my knots - I take notice of my body throughout the day and consciously lower my eyebrows and shoulders and relax my muscles. It is amazing how great it feels to stop holding that tension in.
*removing all thoughts except for appreciating where I am at this EXACT moment. Focusing on how the chair under me feels, on the rise and fall on my breathing, etc.
*If I feel anxious in the evening I do the 10 minute cardio jump rope video - it helps me focus on something concrete and I burn calories too!
*I smile on purpose. Not a crazy smile, just a small upturn of the corners of my mouth. :) This small act changes my whole personality in an instant.
*I look at the evidence against a thought. Ie, If I stop tracking for a day I will sabotage my efforts... the evidence shows that no it won't. I can track occasionally and still eat well.
*I mentally repeat two things that I feel good about. In my parenting, it is that my kids sleep well and are polite. For my weight loss it is that I have lost inches and my arms look great. This is a new addition for me and I am very excited to apply this one to other areas of my life.
What do you do that helps you?