Monday, September 19, 2011
I'm not recently overweight. It's been my entire life with a few, fleeting periods of being closer to normal, but still overweight. I have never been a healthy weight. I am working on getting there and plan to stay there once I do.
This blog was triggered by me adding a sparkfriend. Like me, he is 46, wants to lose 80-ish pounds, and has low self-esteem. And, it made me wonder is he's been overweight as long as I have, which made me think back to when I was much younger. I wrote about "High School Skinny" before, which I never was. But, much of my self image was shaped back in high school, and honestly, it was shaped by one song.
The Leader by The Clash - and it's one line in the song that did it -
"Now the girl let the fat man touch her, vodka fumes and the feel of a vulture."
How pathetic is it that one line in a Clash song from 1980 that was never really popular here in the United States could have such an impact on me? But, that's what did it. I have been the fat man all my life.
I am going to have to break out of that - first physically, then mentally.