Monday, September 19, 2011
"I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate." Paul confessed in his letter to the Romans.
All I can say is, "Me Too!"
I caught myself trying to cheat this morning.
Somewhere during lap 9 I almost convinced myself that I was on lap 10. If I hadn't been timing my run, I think I would have believed myself! I know that I run a lap in 3-4 minutes, so when I looked at my time, I realized that I still had three laps to go, instead of the two I was telling myself were left!
My first 5K race is this weekend. I really want to be ready to run it. I've been training for months. I didn't get to run all weekend because of other commitments, so this long run was really important for my preparation. So why was I so intent on deceiving, and undercutting myself? I am sneaky, and lazy ... and a good detective with a will to succeed.
I think it is really funny to have such a clear illustration of how we are divided within ourselves. Makes me think of those little devil and angel selves that whisper in the ears of cartoon characters.
I'm awfully glad my better self won this morning!