Welcoming the FALL!

The year so far has been full of ups and downs. Most recently a series of downs, but the only way is forward, so that is what I am going to do.

Pick myself up, dust myself off and MOVE.

I gained some of the weight back (okay, a lot of it) over the summer as I was letting my foot heal from a fracture. I lost all of my endurance and stamina.

Basically I am on square one. Familiar spot, this one.

The optimism I felt in the beginning of the year has turned into muted determination. I know how to lose weight, after all, I have done it many times. I also, apparently, know really well how to gain it back.

Time to change some patterns, me thinks. No time like the present.

Time to find other ways to boost and/or reflect my mood and general well-being than comfort foods.

Time to realize that, yes, I lost the level of fitness I worked so incredibly hard for, and, no, it's not fair. But I need to just let it go. Suck it up. Move on. I achieved it once, I can do it again.

The scale stands at 81 kilos. WHOA BOY. 178.2 pounds. That's a 10 pound weight gain since mid-June. Normally this is the point where I would start berating myself, wallowing in self-loathing and recrimination.

Not this time. So, I lost control. I can regain it.

I will get back to my running, I will be able to pass the Haagen Dazs shelf in the store and not crumble. I will start paying attention to what I eat and how much.

Starting right now. Isn't the first step admitting that there is a problem? Check. The second step to identify the way forward? Check. The third is to just do it, right? Ch... um, yeah, not quite there yet.

But I will get there. Just watch me. Or better yet -- join me!