Friday, September 16, 2011
About one year ago I started changing my lifestyle towards a clean and healthy diet combined with regular exercise. I learned a lot about nutrition and training and created new healthy habits for myself. I got a lot happier and stronger and although I was facing 6 months without my husband by my side for support, I managed to not fall of the wagon too often. I lost weight and kept it off. Well....I gained a little bit back but not all of it as I have not gone back to my old ways. Sometimes I just happen to enjoy a few treats to many here and there....
I also managed to start my own business at the time which was challenging without my husband around for encouragement.
I joined Sparkpeople in the new year and found the extra support I needed to stick to my diet, exercise and positive attitude to create my best self I can for the return of my husband and make him proud. He loved the results I greeted him with when he got back from Afganistan. We went on an amazing holiday of a lifetime and while on vacation and after the trip, we stuck to our (I got him inspired too) healthy ways. Throughout the summer I got better and better at running, finished a half marathon and then wanted more and more and more.......... which in the end was too much too soon and I got burned out.
I lost the spark for running, comforted myself with chocolate and as you know, the downward spiral began. I managed to catch myself before falling too deep and had to realise that I am a work in progress and that means I have to keep working on myself. ALWAYS! I am so much an ALL-OR-NOTHING person which explains why I tend to give up when I hit a wall.
There is no reason I can not take it easy for a while. I don't need to improve ALL THE TIME, especially not the way I was going. It's just not possible. The important thing is to stick with it, try again, accept a bad day, a bad run and a desert too many. And then move on and be proud of what I achieved so far, not what I haven't achieved yet. I can still beat my personal best next month, run a marathon next year or the year after.... it doesn't have to happen right now. Setting goals is great but I need to learn to not overdue it.
This is why I am back, ready to go again. Moving on.......... tracking food again, tracking exercise again and asking for support. Progress not perfection! I am ready to progress again. Please catch me when I stumble before I fall again.