Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Fortunately, my post chemo heartburn was mild last night, so it did not keep me awake. I still took a sleeping pill though; got up at 9am this morning.
I've had a mild sinus headache off and on today; it's the change in the weather, it got very chilly and windy overnight, then being outside today at the cemetery got it started again too, because of the wind. Had to take a pain pill for the hip/knee pain too.
Despite the weather, my dad's burial service was very nice. Just a small group of us there, but that was ok; it was nice just having a few people, made it more intimate. After it was over, we went to Biggby's ( a coffee shop) and got something hot to drink.
As soon as I got home, I got into pjs and a warm fuzzy robe. I'm glad I have nowhere to go tomorrow; it's been a busy week and it's the only day I don't have to go anywhere, so I am just going to stay home and putter around the house a little bit; let myself recover a bit from the chemo so I am feeling ok for the Relay for Life on Saturday.
Despite sleeping later today I am still tired, so it will probably be an early bedtime tonight.
I have been reading A Journal of Love and Healing: Transcending Grief by Sylvia Browne and Nancy Dufresne; it's not a book I am rushing through, I just read a few pages a night so I can let it sink in and really think about it. I want to share something Sylvia wrote:
" When I feel pity for myself, I treat myself as a friend. I treat myself with patience and acceptance. I don't judge what I am feeling. I don't judge my friends so why judge myself? Enough people do the judging for you".
I think those are very wise words, and not only to they apply to death, but for any difficult time we have to go through.