Sunday, September 11, 2011
Good morning 911-
Been up since 3:30 am..can't sleep and I admit admit I didn't sleep well so my mind is very foggy this morning. I talked to my daughter yesterday evening at 6:30 and she hadn't even dilated to a 2 yet and was miserable and she's been in the hospital since Friday about 11:30 am! The doctor finally agreed to a c-section if that's what she wanted so she's scheduled at 6 am this morning.
She asked me what to do and I advised the operation BUT told her she needed to think about it and make her own decision. She has been on medication that may delay her healing. Quite honestly, I told her that laying there that long if it goes too long they'll have to take the baby anyway. She's already so tired I don't know how she'd manage delivery anyway. She's been vomiting on and off due to the medications but since they stopped giving the magnesium to her her migraine finally abated so she can think much better. She said that with the operation, she'll need me to stay longer (she sounded so worried) and I told her not to worry. I was planning 2-3 weeks minimum anyway:) By then, hopefully, I'll have a place to move to.
Meanwhile, I'm trying to get organized but my mind is so scattered, racing here and there. I'm feeling disoriented right now. I really need to calm myself and focus. My biggest worry now is can I handle these new demands I'll be soon undertaking. I have so little patience because of my constant pain. I have to pace myself all the time or I get overtired very quickly. Here at home alone it's not hard to do. Eh.. I really need to stop worrying about that. I'm feeling tired and achy and my back is bothering me but I'm sure I'll improve as the day goes on. Think positive!! I'm going to need a lot of strength for this little venture though (smiles)
Meanwhile, I salute all the 911 victims, which really is everyone to a degree as we've all been touched by this. Though the ones that were there, it's really hard to digest. I believe this day stands for strength and rebirth at least for our tiny little family and for each birthday Lilly has, we will always remember..the hope and for this, I'm very thankful:)
Thank you for reading my morning ramblings.
I hope you all have a very blessed day!