Sunday, September 11, 2011
What is more important? Bills getting paid or your time/health/sanity.
It was bills getting paid, but today was the **its.
I am done!!!!!!!!
I worked 28 hours at my day job and my night job was 12 hours on Wednesday night.
I got a call Friday morning that her dog had diarrhia, would I come over to clean up dog **it. No I work my day job. Ok then it will wait for you for 8 hours until you get You get off.....
Um NO!!! Call another worker....
I don't want to put anyone out...
I called my superviser!
So I now had "only" dusting, 3 loads of poopy laundry, prep for 7 meals, sweeping, Bandage changes for both legs, and dog duty (cleaning pen-which I did on Wed, play with dog, give her a break from dog that needs constant attention, washing dog, his food and water and tidying.) And try to get some sleep!
Oh but I need to add a vet appointment and shoppping for bland dog diet, and cleanup of continued poo accidents.
I take dog home due to the need for constant care. I set up a safe place for him, nap with him, play, shop for him, cook mush and prep 18 meals, give 2 doses of 3 meds with one hand to problem solve for her. AND at 10pm I haven't eaten, MY husband hasn't eaten, MY dogs have not been fed, MY husband cuts his bad leg close to a vein...blood pouring everywhere!
I call and say look I cant drive but I will care for dog overnight....
ANSWER Fine but you wont get paid for it.
Like I did ANY of this BS for $!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My precious time with my hubby Fricken wasted and THIS is what I get!!!!!!!!!!!
But NO not me I put 12 years of friendship first and say fine I can't change anything with out crashing on the way to her house in another town. BUT I will come in AM and spend 2 hours prepping and finishing and caring....I know that there is no extra hours to pay me.
I NEVER ask EVER for more money....
I have stayed and come by on my off days cause another worker is unreliable..
I have to go next week 2x in pm to give darn dog his meds.
It was to be 4 but I know my limits and called in supervisor(another friend of 12 years) again.
She don't do it for $ either.
I am frosted worse that a 10 layer bunny cake and just venting.
I have resisted reducing overnights due to her stress.
MY STRESS IS OVER THE TOP.
7 days EVERY week no time off either 12 hour overnight or 7 hour day OR BOTH!!!!
My hubby NEVER sees me.
I want to get out and join groups and make friends.....NO time! I am tooo exhausted.
My God children today said I have to stop working every Friday and Saturday (for the last 3 YEARS!) so I can spend a night with them!!! 2, 4, and 6 and smarter than me!!!
So what is more important??
money or time?
mental well being or health?
I am tooo frosted and exhausted to choose right now.
Soon it will not be a choice but a neccessity.
Thanks for listening to me vent.
This is healthy for me.
I am not eating my anger for once!!!
And yes I know this too shall pass.....
But tonight, now,
I AM FURIOUS!!!!