Saturday, September 10, 2011
I have had a hard time staying on my eating plan. I haven't. I sat down today trying to figure out what was going on and, then, aha. I am a people pleaser. Somewhere along the line of trying to get this sitting business together and trying to help hubby get his social security disability, I settled back into my insecure people pleasing mode. This mode includes worrying about not being good enough to other people. Worried I might say the wrong thing, especially when voicing an opinion. Worried that hubby would feel I wasn't doing enough. He has never said I haven't. This is all me.
I have been consumed with worry. My hubby says I have a horribly low self esteem. I guess he is right. I have always been this way. At least, now I realize what is causing this last binge. I hope this next week I can bring my eating under control and worry less. I need a new mind set.