I Had a Decision to Make this Morning
Saturday, September 10, 2011
And I'm very proud that I made the right one! I've spent the entire work-week scratching and clawing my way back on track, and I managed to lose about 3 lbs and FINALLY start seeing an improvement in my uniform fit. Then came the weekend. My weekends have been abysmal for the last month, and more than anything else the crappy weekend choices I've been making have led to my recent weight gain. I made a plan for the weekend- which involved going for a looooong walk today followed by some studying/football/out-to-eat-w
th-hubby stuff. The plan did not involve sitting on the couch eating chocolate. I really wanted to get back on track with my eating and try to avoid all snacking actually. So there I was this morning, tired, bleary-eyed, and a teensy bit hungover from too much wine last night. I stood in the kitchen in front of the bowl of Hershey's kisses and at 9 in the morning I almost popped one in my mouth without thinking. And then the entire day passed before my eyes- and it involved me on the couch, surrounded by foil Kisses wrappers, then a 5 Guys burger and fries for lunch while hubby was out for a run, then maybe hummus and pita chips or cheese and crakcers. Then lots and lots of self-loathing. Then, back to work on Monday to find my uniform tight again, but this time it's not just uncomfortable, it's actually unwearable and I have to buy a bigger size. That's the future I would have faced with that one tiny Kiss this morning.
So I didn't do it. I shook myself out of it, laced up my shoes before I had time to talk myself out of it. 5 hours later, after a walk on this beautiful, clear day, I feel amazing. That self-loathing that I would have faced after a day on the couch eating wasn't there, instead it's replaced by motivation to continue to eat well and make good choices, and the confidence that I can do this again. I had a great, healthy lunch, and now I'm ready to go to dinner and make good choices. I have to keep it up tomorrow and not venture down the "chocolate-on-the-couch" path again tomorrow- especially since I WILL be on the couch watching football (and studying), but after making the right choice this morning, I know it'll be that much easier to make the same choice tomorrow. Whew, what a relief.