Saturday, September 10, 2011
It's been awhile since I blogged. I do find blogging somewhat therapeutic and if someone else finds it helpful or interesting or something than that's just an added perk.
What I don't understand is why when I've been having continuous weight loss and haven't gone off track since July 3rd, why do I feel like if there's a week where my weight loss is low or I stay the same I get upset/bothered by it?? It's better than the scale going up, right?? So, what's the deal?
Why do we torture ourselves like that? I weigh in every Sunday morning 1st thing and when I went to start laundry this morning (Saturday) I got on the scale. It's showing not even a 1 lb weight loss. So, now I'm kinda bummed. But, this has happened before where I got on the scale a day or two before my weigh in day and not show any real loss and come Sunday morning, it's a totally different story. I show a weight loss. It's a possibility when I get on the scale tomorrow I will show a loss of more than 1 lb. I think. It seems as if my body knows it's Sunday and everything comes into place Sunday morning when I get on the scale.
I should be happy as long as the scale doesn't go up. I know. Since July 3rd I'm down 35 lbs. Hopefully more by tomorrow.
Why is the number on the scale so controlling...My clothes fit big...I'm buying smaller sizes...I guess when you start out weighing so much when the scale doesn't move it can be discouraging. I started out at 328 lbs and I still have a long way to go. So, of course I don't want the scale to go in another direction other than down. I want the numbers to go down.
Nothing can discourage me now and undo everything I've done so far. I can't let it. I won't.
Well, that's it for now. Hopefully anyone that reads this doesn't think I'm rambling on and on. If so I apologize. Like I said earlier I think blogging can be therapeutic. It's like writing in a diary or journal. The only difference is your blogs/thoughts are made public. Which is fine with me, because we're all in this together.