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On feeling like you’ll never make it through, until you do.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

On feeling like you’ll never make it through, until you do.

When a circle of people from all over the globe place their troubles in the centre of the circle and are asked to take back whatever troubles they want, they will invariably take back their own.

emoticonNever be ashamed of what you are going through, even if you are certain that others might think it just isn’t a big deal at all. We all have our own pace and if we keep looking forward we’ll make it through.

My personal challenges are financial, academic and body confidence.


emoticonI have enough money to eat for weeks (I heart beans and rice )
emoticonand I won’t have to leave my home for at least two months.
emoticonThe more weight I loose the more of my old clothes that fit me (which is basically like having new clothes WOOP).
I work long hours so my lecky and heating bills are waaaaaay down HUZZAH!
emoticonThe bank know where I live BOOOOOOOO! But I’ve saved enough for this month’s loan repayment BOOYAH!
emoticonI appreciate the zen like state of being removed from consumerism.Ommm
(NOTE: this poverty is grad-student poverty and in no way comparable to actual poverty in which uncertainty rules your life ‘where will I get food’ ‘where can I sleep’. And I do not mean to belittle or trivialise people surviving that life.)

As I have been whining and moaning to several of you I’m trying to write my doctoral thesis.
Demotivation stations grrrrrr
I am my own worst enemy!!
emoticonSitting down and writing AT LENGTH about my research into the biochemical mechanisms of neurodegeneration is boring (surprise!) and soul destroying. By boss is meticulous and needs draft after draft….after draft…. (repeat to fade)…..
Which is hard as I KNOW I gotta finish quick smart!
AAAaaand then I spend time writing blogs……and procrastinating (yes you endlessly entertaining websites…you know who you are….)

BUT! I have a cunning plan…GOAL…and what’s the most motivating thing for me to work towards?? HALLOWEEN BABY! (Samhain to my druidic and wiccan connected brethren) fun fact: apparently Irish settlers brought Halloween to America …YOU’RE WELCOME! So ya massive Halloween festival in Cambridge in the UK aim to be finito and free to ghoul up and creep over there with a murder of my most undead friends.
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I WILL FINISH, I HAVE TO! I need this chapter of my life to be finished so I can move on to new adventures and pastures fresh.

Body Confidence: Plateau country. But not Fateau country! YAY! Still slimmer than I was…easy to forget that… I’ll weigh myself again in a few days…

OK Then back to work (wish I could write a page of science this easily)
You guys are helping me stay strong XXX

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
AVAFOX 6/17/2013 6:21PM

  I really love your blog! And your research sounds so fascinating, I'm jealous! Good work, both on losing weight and being so inspiring. You may feel you need to lose more but you look lovely to me!

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AMYNYNJ 9/14/2011 7:37PM

    You go girl!!! Don't worry about student poverty, once you get through it, it get's better.

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SWAZY33 9/12/2011 7:30AM

    With your ARE already a winner!
Life does have a way of throwing a lot at us but a great attitude like yours WILL get you through :)

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GONABFIT 9/10/2011 9:39PM

    Great attitude to keep! Way to go. I definitely know how you feel. Med school was hard and I felt like I had nothing the entire time. Now I'm in residency and it's nice to have a little more money. But I also have bills.

Such is life. May as well enjoy!

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SUSUSUZZZIE 9/10/2011 11:56AM

    You have a fantastic attitude and it's positively contagious! Way to go on seeing all seeing all the blessings in your challenges.

I can't wait to read soon about how you've finished your thesis and you're ready to move to the next pasture and adventure!
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SHINJU39 9/10/2011 11:44AM

    Keep your focus your dissertation will be finished soon.

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As for self confidence I think that comes from within - I have been feeling great just lately - and as the other issues resolve I am sure yours will start to soar.

Have a great weekend


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