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Finding Balance

Wednesday, September 07, 2011

Today starts round 17 of the Biggest Loser Challenge, which I will probably be posting about from time to time.

My stats for the beginning of this round (just to get them out there):

WEIGHT: 170.0 lbs.
BUST 41"
CHEST 33.5"
WAIST 40.5"
HIPS 44"
HIGHS(R & L) 27"; 26.5"
UPPER ARM (R & L) 13.5"; 13.5"

Not as bad as I feared but not as good as I had hoped, either. I seem to be stuck at 170--which is a good 35 pounds heavier than I want to be and at least 15 pounds (and several inches) bigger than is healthy--by pretty much every healthy body weight/composition measure that I have access to.

My goal for the round is is to lose 6 lbs in 12 weeks. Just 6 pounds (well, if I lose more, yay, but 6 pounds is my goal). That's an average of a half pound every week. It's not a lot of weight, but 6 pounds would put me at 164 lbs, which I haven't hit in years.

I have been struggling with weight loss now for 6 years.... longer than it took for me to put on the weight in the first place (I put on the weight in less than 4). In the beginning, I kept being told it was "simple," that all I needed to do was "work out a little" and to "make some simple diet changes." Well, I've done more than that, and yet the pounds are still here, the fat is still here. This might help explain why this past spring/summer I have been torn between two extremes.. On the one hand, to say f*ck it and stop trying because I am struggling and trying and depriving myself and pushing myself and working up a sweat for nothing so why bother? On the other hand, I want to workout for 3 hours every day and not eat (which is disturbingly easier to do than eating a healthy diet and managing nutrients and calories etc.) Neither extreme is healthy and I have not given in to either of them... rather I am clinging stubbornly to the idea that if I continue to work out moderately but consistently and eat healthy foods and watch my portion sizes etc. that I will eventually reach my goal of not.

(edit: I'm not really at risk of an eating disorder... just struggling with keeping focused and motivated when I feel like I'm making no progress. Some days it feels like I'm banging my head against a wall and that my options are either to give up (less pain, anyway) or work harder.... It does help me understand how people come to develop eating disorders. But I actually have a pretty realistic assessment of my body and am focused more on getting healthier than thinner--and not eating is definitely counter productive to my real goals!)

It's a good thing I'm very stubborn, I guess. Otherwise I might have tipped either into the realm of an eating disorder (not as likely because I refuse to go down that road) or into giving up (more likely, but I am still fighting against it.).

I do reserve the right to shoot Nerf darts the next time someone (on line, on the TV, in person) says that I can easily loose weight if I just watch less TV (which I rarely watch, by the way) and/or watched my calories (I consume between 1400 and 1600 calories on average, closer to 1800 on weeks that I fence--as my base metabolism is supposedly 1800 calories a day, and I'm eating within my spark recommended ranges, I should have lost 50 pounds twice over by now) and/or work out "a little" (I push my body as hard as I can--I aim for an average of 20-30 minutes of cardio 5 days a week, strength training 2-3 days a week, and 1000 fitness minutes every month. I walk, bike, fence, roller blade, swim, and play tennis during the summer, in the winter I zumba, walk on a treadmill, use the elliptical, and use exercise dvds).

I think that's fair. emoticon

In any case, I don't know if we are going to have goals like we did last round so I may elaborate on this but my goals for this round at least for now are:

1) Lose 6 lbs.
2) Eat at least one fresh fruit/veggie every day
3) Get in at least 20 minutes of exercise 5 days a week.
4) To be determined; something to deal with the stress as stress is a major issue for me right now. Something more productive (and less violent) then shooting Nerf darts at people.
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EUPHRATES 9/12/2011 12:44AM

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FAVORED_ONE 9/9/2011 8:51AM

    Zanna
Your goals and your "can-do" attitude will take you far.

As long as you are doing what you can you will do great and when you feel up to it do just a little more.


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KEC1974 9/9/2011 6:56AM

    As you know, I can totally empathize with your frustration about numbers. And I love your attitude and determination. You can do it!!

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HEALTHYNOW4ME 9/8/2011 12:03AM

    I think you have realistic goals and a great attitude! Hang in there! You will find your way! emoticon

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MONETRUBY 9/7/2011 9:19PM

    Hey, you've made some great progress, so you should be very proud of how far you've come. I know you are, but I wanted to acknowledge that, since I have some small understanding of how frustrating those numbers can be. Even if those numbers still laugh in your face, you can laugh in *their* face (if numbers have faces?), since you're so much healthier and stronger now than when I first met you. Actually, I would encourage you to zing some nerf darts at those numbers, and tell 'em to buzz off! Along with all those annoying people.

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 9/7/2011 4:49PM

    Great goals and realistic attitude. I love that about you, and yeah, I've been tempted by the same extremes, leaning more towards the giving up than the eating disorder end of the spectrum. I've been dealing with those issues for the past 3 months. This is my round though. And with all that you do you have already won in that you have most of your active life back. Maybe not to the extent you want yet, but it is far, far better than when I first met you.

**NUZZLES & HUGS**

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SAASHA17 9/7/2011 2:36PM

    Good luck with the goals. well when ur busy , maintaining and balancing life gets hard and its always a struggle but then life is a learning curve..So eevrything helps...so no worries and take care
Manasa

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