So, everyone keeps asking how much longer / what week are you / when are you due. Honestly, knowing the statistics that only 3% of due dates are correct, I purposely forgot what my "official due date" was months ago. I've mostly been focusing on how I feel and what my own internal body clock is saying. Right now, I feel like I have about a week and a half to go. But who knows? Babies come when they are good and ready to, due dates, time tables, and plans be darned.
Work has still been going well - I love being my own boss because I can flex my schedule and my patients around what I need, be it time for a prenatal appointment or just an extra hour in the morning to get myself going. It's definitely been a blessing. My official "last day" seeing patients is next week, the 15th. I can't believe it's come so quickly, but in a way, I'm really looking forward to it too. I feel like I need the mental space to really finish the process of psyching myself up for labor. I asked friends yesterday to give me their top 5 songs for workouts / getting amped up so I can put together a Work It! Labor! mix for my iPOD. I know it will be so motivational for me to have positive, bumping music to get through contractions with. While I love Enya / new-age / no-words-soothing music, and I'm sure I'll want to listen to something like that during my labor, I cannot imagine listening to only that for hours on end. No thanks!
I am doing my best to stay positive about my body image, even though my weight has gone back up from its drop a fwe weeks ago. I am trying to not let myself just give up "because I only have a few weeks left," though it is very tempting. Now is the time to give 110% to staying on track with good eating. I have been getting a lot of great support from everyone, especially at Jazzercise. It's nice to hear that other ladies in my class are impressed by my commitment to fitness in my pregnancy. Sure beats the midwife I saw at my appointment two weeks ago (I'm going to a group practice and hadn't met this one), who told me I should nap instead of workout, because I'm going to need the sleep in a few weeks. Wha??? Like I can bank sleep for later? Puh-lease. I'm a terrible nap taker and always have been! I feel so much better, and -rested-, when I workout. I sincerely hope that one of the other midwives that I've liked better is on on-call when we go in to labor. She has been my least favorite of the group thus far.
Overall, I am just ready for this process to be over and to move on to the next phase. I'm looking forward to begining our life as a family of 3 and to see DH carrying Baby Sunshine around and talking to them :) I can't wait to see that.
I know it's going to be just too cute.
Getting closer with every day - just have to keep on truckin'
**UPDATE** Had prenatal appointment. It was with the midwife I didn't like last time - of course! Better this time, but I also barely spoke to her except to answer questions. The more appointments I go to, the more and more I feel like they are a waste of my time. I'm sure that if I was having problems, I would definitely be appreciating their care, but honestly, I could be doing some of these measurements at home and be monitoring myself. :p I guess, the bottom line, be thankful for a healthy pregnancy that doesn't need help and that I have access to quality prenatal care in the first place, as I know there are many that don't. Oh, and I made sure that my appt next week is with someone else