Monday, September 05, 2011
For the First time in my life I feel like I know what I want to do with my life. When I was first married I really only knew that I wanted to get married and have a family. I did that and it is great. Worked in the job world to help make a living in our house hold and generally lived life. Now that my son is in college and I've been jobless for over a year and a half I found myself thinking, "What do I want to do with my life?" I've never really known the answer to that question.
Talking to my husband about how I changed my life last year with healthy eating and exercise and exploring articles that explained how my body worked I got excited thinking about it. I have thought for over a year now that being a personal trainer sounded so interesting. I feel very passionate about this new life style. It feels right, it feels true. God made our bodies in a particular way and it is no surprise that they are intended to be treated that way - His way - which happens to be the healthy way.
I thought how cool it would be to be able to learn more about my body, how it works and then be able to touch other people's lives with what I have learned on Sparks and what I will continue to learn through a personal training course. I felt myself come alive thinking about it. My husband said to do what makes me come alive.
This makes me come alive! Becoming a personal trainer - establish myself further in this healthy lifestyle and touch other people's lives and help transform them. So...
I took the plunge and investigated different on line courses and enrolled in one last night. I'm soooooooo excited!! I can't wait to dive in and start learning. It is so hard to believe I have taken this step. How often in life we think of things that we might like to do "some day." Or we see other people living a dream and think "Wouldn't that be awesome to do some day?" Well... Some day is HERE! I'm doing it!
I don't know how all this fits together with the rest of my life and I need to find a job. I've filled out an application for a local gym - they weren't advertising but I thought "what the heck!" You just never know. I would like to have some experience with a gym, how they operate and how their trainers work. I need that kind of experience and wouldn't it be so cool to actually work at a place like that. It would only enhance my dream and help me to learn.
So, one day at a time. I've decide my first client is - ME! Yep! It has to be me. I can't preach what I don't know and practice. And I do know a lot but I've become sloppy in the past few months "forgetting" things I know to be true and giving in to my whims that I know are not good for me. So, back to what I know. Eat right - record everything in Sparks, continue to exercise (I've not had trouble w/that one, thank goodness), read articles, study and embrace my goals and dreams. Oh, and one last thing, squash that little voice in my head that says "What are you doing? You've never done anything like this. This is out of your comfort zone. It will never work - just go back to "normal" and watch from the sidelines."
NOT ANYMORE WILL I LISTEN TO THAT VOICE. I WON'T! When I start to hear it, and I will, I am ignoring it and forcing myself to think of what is true, what is right, what is pure! And it will go away. Some day, completely.
So, that is what is happening to me. I've been kind of quiet on here trying to figure out what is next and how to get back on track. This is it. And if feels right. I'm so excited. I know there will be tough days as there is with anything worth while but it is so worth going for and keeping at it.
Here we go. Blogging was one of my first steps. Eating a really healthy breakfast was second and beginning my on line course is next. It is a great day!
I finally know what I want to do when I grow up!