I am in such good spirits today. This last year has been a year of transformation. I blogged on that a while back. About how I was the fat caterpillar who was finally starting to emerge from her cocoon as a butterfly. Now I feel like the fully grown butterfly who has completely emerged from the cocoon and is flying high with her new wings. I know that sound cheesy but it is true. I feel like I am free. I have broken the chains that use to bound me.
I have been so busy with school, that I have not had much time for reflection. But I am taking a break on this 3 day weekend, and wanted to share with you some successes that have recently happened.
It is amazing how my friendships with you people helps me put things in perspective. Whether it is a comment on my page, a quote someone shares, or reading someone's blogs, it has such a positive impact on me. If only you guys knew how much you all touch my life and make it a better one. I feel so incredibly blessed. I really truly do.
On Wed. we had a birthday party for my twin nieces who just turned 1. My family is known for their big cookouts filled with delicious foods. This is probably the first time I have been to a family gathering since I got really serious on SP (which was about 3 months ago.) I did such a little thing, yet it really was an AHA moment for me.
It was very important for me to stay within my calorie range. But I did not want to bring a Lean Cuisine meal to the family gathering. That just felt wrong. However I did not want to eat a bunch of sodium packed high fat red meat foods either. So I came to the party with a raw chicken breast and asked my Dad to grill it for me along with his kosher sausages and hamburgers. My Dad is a master on the grill. It was delicious. I was eating real food. But something that would allow me to stay in my calorie range. I ate some of my mom's homemade french fries and said no to the birthday cake and ice cream. I left that party feeling full and proud.
I have finally WON the battle when it comes to food. I know I will probably have to count calories the rest of my life. And I am okay with that. But I do not have to live in fear of food anymore. I can make adjustments, like bring my own chicken, so I am still eating food someone else has cooked for me. So I am treating myself in a healthy way. The fries were a splurge for me. But they were measurable. And that helped me to be satisfied and I was able to say no to cake and ice cream without even thinking twice about it.
The next day I came home and had a little bit of down time and was able to check my email. I use a different email account where my spark notifications are sent to and I only check it every few days. I had like 150 emails. It turned out that I had gotten nominated Sparkler of The Week for the 30's with 50 to 99 lbs to lose team. There are over 346, 000 members in this group. So to have gotten nominated for SOTW was a HUGE honor to me. I was flooded with people who had added me as a friend, sent me goodies, left me comments on my page, and sent me emails. Talk about feeling warm and fuzzy.
I added everyone who added me as a friend, but I am unable to send individual thank yous. I think pretty much everyone knows that I am a single mother taking an 18 hour course load at school. I spend 18 hours on campus a week, AND 18 hours a week student teaching in an elementary school. That does not even include all the papers and lesson plans I have to write, as well as regular homework, journaling, and tests to study for.
This is the most overwhelming and busiest I have ever been. Most of the times I feel like the lady in the Calgon commercial BEFORE she gets in the bathtub. (Calgon, take me AWAY!!!!) But my friend Seaturtle86 left this quote on my page.
""Nothing worthwhile ever happens quickly and easily.
You achieve only as you are determined to achieve…
and as you keep at it until you have achieved."
- Robert Lauer
Thank you Seaturtle86! That really hit home for me. I have got so much on my plate at school. But in the end it will be worth it. I want to be a high quality teacher. And in order for that to happen, I need to be taking all the classes I am taking, and spend a vast amount of time in the elementary school student teaching. It is overwhelming all I have to do, but it is not unreasonable. And when I finally get my degree and become a certified teacher it will be so DAMN worth it. I am done whining about my school schedule now. I have accepted that it is just part of what needs to be done. FINALLY!
You all know that I hurt my leg during one of my 10 mile walks. Turns out it was a HUGE no no to use ankle weights when walking. Especially when you are walking 10 miles. Especially when you walked 5 to 10 miles 52 days in a row and walked 288 miles in one month. All with ankle weights. When my orthopedic doctor found out about this he shook his head and I am sure if it weren't for a lawsuit on his hands he probably would have bitch slapped me. LOL. What can I say? My name is Shelby. I am not always the brightest bulb in the lamp. And I have a tendency of learning things the hard way.
Doc thinks I have torn my meniscus which is cartilage in the knee. I had an MRI yesterday and will get the results on Thursday. If I do have to get knee surgery, the problem will be fixed immediately. The surgery sounds like no big deal. It is done with a laser so they don't have to cut into me or anything. My dad had a surgery for his meniscus and he was right as rain 3 days later. I would rather find out I had a torn meniscus and need surgery and be out of pain then have the doctor not be able to find out what is wrong. I will keep you guys updated.
My friend Russell37 left this comment on my page. "sometimes being injured helps direct all your energy to diet.. which isn't all bad.. when you get back to exercising, you will lose even faster."
He is absolutely right. Because I had to stop doing my 5 and 10 mile walks, I was forced to really focus on staying in my calorie range. When you go from burning 7,000 calories to 1,000 calories a week, it makes a HUGE difference in weight loss. It was more important than ever that I started logging things I didn't usually log. Like gum and water flavor packets and that 47 calorie popsicle.
It also also forced me to do something I had not done EVER. Find another way to burn calories. Now I sit on my stability ball every other day and workout with 5 lb dumbbells. I do it while I watch movies. I call it "movicising." It is super exciting to see my arm muscles developing. I notice a huge difference in my arm muscles and it fills me with delight. I am gonna have me some Linda Hamilton arms just like she did in T2. Just you wait and see. The gun show should be sometime soon. Tickets are going for $10 bucks a pop but all sparkies get in for free! :0)
Thanks Russell37 for helping me see the bright side of an injury.
Today was my weigh in day and I weighed 194.2. I have lost 72.5 lbs! This week I lost 2 lbs. This is super great for 2 reasons. One, because I had a 2 lb weight loss which is not easy to do when all you are really doing is working out your arms every other day and walking around campus 15 minute a day. But the second reason this is so awesome is that my 5% summer challenge was to lose 5% of my body weight in 8 weeks. Well I hit it today, a full week early! This brings me to a total body weight loss of 27% in one year. Say it with me people......
And while I shouldn't be sharing this because you aren't supposed to count your chic-fil-a sandwiches before they are wrapped........next weekend I have a DATE!!!!! This is a guy I have been talking to off and on for almost half a year. I met him on match.com. We almost went on a date a few different times but it never worked out. Mainly I think because I just was not happy with myself yet. I still suffered from low self esteem. A huge turn off for men, I was not happy with my body yet. I was not quite a fat caterpillar anymore when I met him online, but I was slumbering inside my cocoon.
We became facebook friends. I think he noticed that I was becoming a butterfly. He was fine with my weight even when I was a size 18. But I was not the same happy condifent person that I am now. He saw me in flight. And now either next Friday or Saturday he is taking me to a fancy shmancy restaurant while my mom keeps my kid.
I have not been on a date in almost a year. No matter how well it goes or doesn't go. I am going to be holding my head super high. I am a newly size 14 butterfly who has gone from being super obese (the highest level of obesity), to being only 3.3 lbs away from the overweight category. I will feel alive and beautiful and I am going to have a great time. If we have chemistry and see each other again then that will be divine. But if not, I will still be happy that I am going on a date and that for the first time ever, I am not worried about what he thinks of my body.
This guy is SMOKING HOT btw. He is 6'4. A tall glass of water this one. I am so attracted to him that if it weren't for the fact that it would make me a stalker and I would have to delete my son's picture, then I swear I would use this guys pic as the wallpaper on my computer. LOL. This is what he looks like...
Woohoo! he is also smart, funny, nice, and has his own house and a great job. He is a Scorpio like me so we will either fall madly in love or else we will kill each other and play a game I like to call "count the dismembered body parts. Last one left standing at the crime scene is a rotten egg!"
Thanks for reading everyone. I have missed blogging and catching up with you guys. I will write a new blog next weekend about the results of the MRI and how my date goes with Jason. Prayers on both matters are appreciated.
Love you all so much.